Saying Hi to the Persona.

2012/01/27, 5:54 PM

One Moment Please

CNY is leaving me breathless. Will be back shortly with more updates. Stay tune! ;)

2012/01/20, 11:30 PM

Dolphin-chan!

Page 20 of 366. Today was simple, but meaningful. & I love it. And I have a new friend! Meet Dolphin-chan :) The heat & the weird weather transitions had caught my weak point. Being heat stroke is something I despise because it makes me hard to breath and I really dislike the feeling of being heavy-headed all the time. But this time, I was fortunate. Predicted by own health condition and went for cures before heat stroke attacked me. Rhino drink (it's actually called Three Legs Cooling Water but I prefer to call it otherwise heee). Best companion for me to prevent heat stroke.

Off topic. Anyhow, it was pre-birthday celebration today. I'm grateful. Every tiniest thing that had happened to me, I'm grateful that I've grown enough for me to be proud enough to turn 21st. It's just an awesome number but it just can't get off my head.

CNY approaching! Have you done your shopping? I'm planning to do it in a long-term basis so I guess my CNY shopping will never end ;)

Have a great CNY & let's welcome the red packets & the year of the gorgeous dragon!

p/s: Thanks for everything. I know it sucks to be with me but you had endured everything. I'm thankful & grateful for that :)

2012/01/15, 11:32 PM

Page 15 of 366 - That One Friend

Page 15 of 366. I've got no picture today but I've got a story to share. I used to be very insecure with my height. Short & small-sized (some called me petite). Blame the media, honestly. The way they portray the perfect women to be tall, skinny, & pretty. But honestly, nah to all. I used to think that there's no way I would be able to stand out with a size like myself until I went to National Service - 3 years ago.

There was this girl - small-sized, short, petite - whatever you want to call her. She's not extremely pretty or extremely smart but her personality is really cute. She was the leader of our dorm - despite her size - and she slept two bed away from me. I could say that she was the person who had totally changed my initial perceptions between the relationship between body sizes & standing out and she was also the person who had helped me to regain my confidence - despite my size.

Being my dorm mate, she was a really nice girl. She smiled and greeted me whenever we saw each other; she tried hard to strike a conversation whenever we were near each other; she was concerned when anything happened to me; she was a good friend. And, she was almost like this innocent girl-next-door which many would assume that she would be the behind-the-scene person. A normal girl in the shadow.

Being my leader, she was very serious with her responsibilities; she had this huge confidence which portrayed perfectly through her actions and her words; and she was strict. Real strict. It was like, she knew exactly what she was doing and she knew how to balance everything extremely well. I was really impressed. It was almost like two different persons, but somehow, it's also like the she was still same person. I really don't know how to describe this feeling.

Til the end of the camp, me and her were never really close to each other. We were merely a simple "hi, bye" type of friend but it is an undeniable fact that she had somehow - in certain ways - changed my thinking about certain things. And one thing that I'm most delighted was - even though we were not that close with each other, we are still able to strike up random conversation today without any difficulties or any awkwardness. Rather poetic, isn't it?

Relationship is a real mystery. Oh no, chemistry is :)

Do you have a similar experience/friend as me? I hope you do :)

Labels: Day

2012/01/14, 11:29 PM

Page 14 of 366

Page 14 of 366. Suddenly, I feel like this I'm writing a diary cause of this whole project. You know how your personalities differ when you are with different persons? I have a different personality altogether when I'm with my family; with my friends; and with him. I even have different personalities when I speak a different language or when I'm alone. I believe that all of us have multiple personalities within us. It's kinda unavoidable, isn't it? But I also think that we have different segments in our lives as well. Like a pie chart, we have too many things we need to deal with - academic, work, relationship, appearance, etc. A lot of people like to set their lifelong goal as being "perfect"; but for me, there's no definite definition of "perfection" because "perfect" can mean so many different things to so many people. Your version of perfect might not be the same as my version of perfect. So I would always brush it off and say: "Hey, there's no such thing as perfection." which in my belief, is true. But I do believe in our own version of perfection. If you think you are good enough, you are good enough. Only you would know how much effort you had poured in to achieve certain goals. Thus, there's absolutely no need to compare yourself with others. Because what might work for them may not work for you.

But I do believe in being an "all-rounder". You would not need to be the best in everything. You just need to avoid yourself from screwing up anything. As simple as that.

So what's your take? Perfect? Imperfect? Nah.

p/s: I working towards it. Trust me :)
p/s2: We may not have the best past. But it doesn't matter. What matters is, are you willing to be better for the future? :)

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2012/01/13, 8:50 PM

Page 13 of 366

Page 13 of 366. This is a one-year-project if I'm not mistaken. But my life isn't so fantastic so I decided to start just now. ~~and perhaps skipping a few when my day isn't too colorful~~. I'm going to talk about the weather. Yes. The weather. A rather random topic, perhaps to some, often a pick-up line, or a striking topic when one does not have anything to say. But honestly, I feel like the weather sometimes reflects my mood. I love cloudy & rainy days. I dislike sunny days. I love the breeze and the atmosphere cloudy days give me. I love spending my own sweet time in my room on cloudy or rainy days, doing absolutely nothing important, while spending time with a cup of hot coffee and indulging myself in my favorite music, book, or series. I love those moments when I have absolutely no responsibilities on my shoulders, and I'm free to do whatever I want. I love that kind of freedom.

Today was a cloudy day, and now, it's pouring outside. I can hear cars passing by on the damp road outside my window. It's a peaceful night. Everything seems to be so right yet so wrong at the moment. But at this exact moment, I'm happy and I'm feeling carefree. That's what it matters most.

Friday the 13th? Nah. It's just another day :)

Labels: Day

, 11:19 AM

Resolutions?

13 days into 2012. To be honest, I'm not really a person who will list down my new year resolution. Even so, it always look the same - to be a nicer person, to excel in studies etc etc. My resolutions list always looks more like a lifetime resolution. Usually what I will do is accumulate wishes. Whenever I thought of something I want to do, I will jot it down somewhere and try to grant the wish for myself. I don't really disclose these wishes to anyone because I-got-no-idea-why I feel like these wishes are something very personal to me. They are not secrets, but, I just can't put in words how they make me feel.

It's a new year! Sincerely, I hope every single person is happy. And one certain ~~new year~~ lifelong resolution I've always embed within myself is the firm hope that no one will ever, ever get hurt because of me. The haunting past is really scary. We used to go through this phase when we have totally no idea of what to do with ourselves and with our lives so we just rush into everything without any second thoughts. And this was our growing phase when we tend to hurt people. I've learned. And I never intend to repeat my mistakes ever again.

Smile! :)

p/s: It's Friday the 13th. *gasp*

Labels: Random

2012/01/04, 7:44 PM

Haunting Past

Am currently in this situation:- found out about one shocking news, but don't know if I should be happy or not. Actually I intended to start anew. Dwelling with the past will get me nowhere. But I guess I should be happy :) no matter what the situation will become, I'll definitely not give up in anything.

2012/01/03, 2:57 PM

2011 Reflection

2012. It had been quite a journey. 2011 was a year filled with challenging positivism. It was thrilling yet adventuring. Overall, I've learned a lot from 2011. All the challenges and risks I decided to take on. It all happened in 2011. And now, here I am, reflecting on the fruitful journey I had went through, chronologically.

Attempted Flash animation for the first time. Tedious task.

Attempted Multimedia software application for the first time. Another tedious one.

Wrote my very own documentary script on the evolution of Malaysian Animation. I wanted to do something else but I mistaken the assignment's scope. Slight regret there.

Wrote our very own movie script entitled "A Scripted Story". The romance genre is never my forte. Almost all the romance movies I've watched are so cliche I decided to hush it away. A great challenge to come out with something different yet interesting. But I'm quite proud of myself. The outcome was pretty awesome and I started to like the story I created ;)

Created my very own website surrounding the theme of natural disaster - tsunami. Water is my biggest fear. But I wanted tsunami because the moment I saw the title, I know I can create something beautiful from it. And I did. Very proud of my own underwater-themed website ;)

Being PR Director for our very own Advertising Campaign "Box Story". Creating something creative from the scratch is never easy. Simplicity is the most important yet the most difficult key to obtain. But it was one meaningful project. A huge success had proven a lot of things. Benchmark successfully created? ;) I wanted something contrast from my box to meet the ideas of "journey", "growth", and "outcome". Of course, to combine all those three ideas - in a simple way - through the presentation of a box is never easy. Imagine the numbers of scamps I've thrown away and drawn to get one single approval for myself. 5 out of 7 of my scamps were approved by Ms.N but the toughest decision for me to make was which is the one I wanted to do most. And the outcome? Am very happy with it ;)

Internship with Arcis Communications. Am glad I decided to try out PR before anything else. Personally, I think that PR is the combination of practically everything Mass Comm. and Marketing. During my internship period with Arcis, I've learned so much. Practical knowledge is nothing like theoretical knowledge. But of course, there's still room for improvement and I don't intend to stop anytime soon. Life is, after all, a non-ending learning journey. Am still indecisive on whether I will further pursue my career in PR but I will just go with the flow for now and try to learn more about everything before making that very important decision.

Graduated from Diploma (Mass Communication). I've managed to grab the one honor I had been hoping to bag. The honor of being the best student for my entire course. Nothing beats being the best of what you like to do best. I personally like the title a lot and it was such a huge relief the find out that whatever I've done had produced its very juicy fruits. A beautiful full stop for my Diploma and college life - An honored title and a CGPA of 3.97. Proud :')

Double invasion to Melaka with the unusual gang. Every holiday, we will never stop thinking of where we will be going for our short break. But for me, it doesn't matter where; what matters is who you are going with. These people had been enduring my attitude; been there for me during my worst times; and had always been the first to listen to all my problems while giving me a constant pat on the shoulder. I've got no better words to express how grateful I am to have them in my life. Thank you :')

Enrolled in University of Wollongong- Bachelor of Communication and Media Studies. This was a lightning fast decision I made. But who wouldn't considering the fact that the best decision had been placed right in front of you? I love Communications and Media. I'm never going to change to another course just because people say they are so-called "better". Let me define "better" for myself :) Degree was a whole new chapter of my life. I'm enjoying everything I'm learning. A new chapter, and a new aim. There are always goals for me to reach. And there's only one way to reach those goals :) When the results of my first degree semester was released, my heart literally skipped a few beats. Looking at the results, I felt that perhaps the decision for me to take all the risks was right after all. The sole idea of "just go with what your heart tells you" is really strong. I know myself well. I will never ever be able to do something I'm against with. The huge risks I've took during my first semester of degree had proven a lot to me. A heavy stone was lifted from my heart and I'm now very relieved :) Can't wait for the next semester.

Organized Shell FuelSave Day. First ever corporate-related campaign I've co-organized in a team of 4 (and of course, a whole bunch of helpful juniors!). Gained a lot from it as well, in terms of every single angle you can come out with. But the only thing that surprised me was my ability to juggle well between my studies and this project. I'm still proud of myself :)

Saw Shimokawa Mikuni and Ceui live in Malaysia. Right before my eyes. Can't believe my luck. Am hoping for more of these chances to come! :)

Of course, there are so many notable things that had happened in the year of 2011. It was one of the most happening year in my life. College - Internship - Degree. And a lot of perfect yet surprised moments in between. It was a wonderful year. 2012. I'm definite that I will be experiencing more wonderful moments yet again.

HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE! ;)

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