22.10.2009. This date marks an important change of my life, where I no longer only think about myself, I no longer care only for myself, and I no longer being alone in going through hard times. 22.10.2009. I no longer know how much this date means so much to me that whenever I see the number 22, I feel happy for no reason. 22.10.2009. It is the date that changes my life. It is the date that let me know how beautiful life can be, how lucky I am, and how miracle can actually happens. 22.10.2009. It the date, where I find meaning in my life :)

I don't know exactly the right words to describe how I feel about this person. He gives me more than happiness. He just gives me everything. Happiness, sorrow, excitement, surprise, depression. He gives me all the emotions I can get from the world. But no matter what, no matter what emotions he gives me, in the end of the day, there is only one emotion that is deeply embedded in me. We call the emotion LOVE. But I think it's more than that. I find it really amazing for me to be able to be attached so deeply towards a person.

It was an amazing one year. An amazing 365 days. We grew so much throughout the days we went through together. It was an amazing journey.

I strongly believe that love is a feeling so strong that it sometimes makes you lose your balance. Because for me, I sometimes just don't know what to care anymore. I lose my direction. But after this one year, I am clearer with things now. Love is something I cannot deny that, it's the best thing in the world. It just turns your world upside down. The way you see things, the way you make meaning out of things, it's all not the same anymore.

The past one year. It won't be the same without you, sweetie. It will never be the same in the future as well. I am leading a life with us supporting each other and being with each other all the time. Obstacles will never be easier. The single thought of having you with me at these times really do calm me down and made me happier a lot. You had done so much for me I don't know how to appreciate you more than how I appreciate you now. You mean a lot to me. Really, a lot.



I know this post might turned out very cheesy, but it really can't explain how I feel about this day. I don't know how to put in words on my feelings towards Mr.Ng Kok Han. I don't know how he managed to endure me and tolerate with me all the time despite my bad attitude. Whenever he says "I love you" to me, I know he means it a lot. His love towards me is unquestionable. The sacrifice he is willing to make despite being such an egoistic person sometimes really touched me a lot. He don't want anything, he just wants me to be happy. This is just a simple but yet noble wish of him. He really sacrifices a lot for me. So much. I cannot be luckier than what I have now.

He is a sweetie pie. He is always trying to go over himself to make me happy. I know how genuine his love towards me. That's why I always fear, that he will be taken away from me :( I want to make him happy, make him happier than happy. Because I know, he deserves it. He deserves it more than anyone else.

22.10.2010. It's one year, sweetheart. One year. We went through all the ups and downs. Our goal is never to get through this one year only. But to get through our whole life. I remember telling you. 80 years later, I want to hold hands with you, sit on a bench in the park, and see our grandchildren happily playing with each other. I really hope this say will come because our relationship means so much to me. It is my ultimate happiness to have someone like you with me. I know I am arrogant, stubborn, and selfish at times. But towards you, I can't just let go.

We had experienced a lot together, right? The Genting trip. The staying up together. The vacations. The laughter. The cryings. I will never ever forget all the memories we had went through together. Never. Because those are moments that make me feel like I am still alive. And it remind me on how lucky I am to have someone like you with me. Thank you, darling. You know I mean more than that. Let's make through this. Let's build our future together :)