Friday; Public holiday; No class. So the Nothing Box Group a.k.a. Lim Su Wern ( hamster I like hamster but I am NOT one), Ng Kok Han ( the tomato *grins widely* ), Ivan Lim Tzer Kin ( the so-called Setsuna ), Afiqah and Abang Loong spent our time together indulging in assignments. How cool is that? Well, it is really cool in fact, indulging in anything related to Nothing Box is just awesome =D

Thursday. Hamster suddenly decided to create this online MSN group named 'Nothing Box' cause she got a feeling that this group will come in good use in the future, especially for discussion on assignments, outings, trips and stuffs. The first member to come in was Abang Loong, hamster was happy *smiles* The next member to come in was Tomato. Hamster was excited *smiles widely* The next day, all the members are in and the group seems packed. Hamster was delighted *grins widely* So, hamster decided to knock off the silence in a group by making the first ring.

"NOTHING BOX!"

Friday. It was a very last minute plan but hamster decided to do some work. So, by luring in group members, everyone decided to work on our assignment. Place, Fiqah's house kekekeke. Tomato fetches hamster to Afiqah's house and off the assignments gear went off =p

In the same time, hamster discovered a very useful tool, all thanks to another Nothing Box member-to-be, Janice. On that night, Nothing Box had another online discussion (except for tomato, Fiqah and Abang Loong) using Skype. Awesome tool. Saves time and money muahahaha. Conversation was carried out until 3.00 a.m. when Janice decided to doze off. Left hamster and Setsuna. So, we crapped off stuffs unrelated to assignments and guess what, it was already 6.00 a.m. by the time we decided to sleep XD

Saturday. Another meet-up for Nothing Box. This time, Nothing Box (excluding Janice) managed to invade hamster's room. HAPPY GUYS? Absolutely funny to see the desperation of the guys' to peek into hamster's room. So now your desperation has been cured and you owe hamster something muahahahaha.

Hamster is out of words now. Hamster is kinda drowsy. So hamster decided to stop for a while. Goodnight, Nothing Box! XD

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*ahem* Beat away! There's no way I can't do it.
I found out the reason.
I need to find back the missing part.

ASAP!

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Semester 3 is getting more and more pressuring. Just look at the calendar on my room's desk then you will know what I mean. Assignments piling up, but that's not the main source of pressure. The problem with this semester is, almost all the assignments' datelines are placed awfully close to one another, and those assignments are awfully time consuming which leaves no space for us to breath at all.

Just like this week. Chinese New Year is not even over yet but I feel like it was already one month ago punya story. This is what happens when 2 datelines meet in the same week. Tuesday - Storyboard dateline. Monday, stayed up till 4.00 a.m. to edit it. Thursday - Movie poster dateline. Tuesday and Wednesday, no sleep at all. And even after all these, the outcome is not what I expected, which disappointed me awfully lot.

I am not working towards my best sometimes, I know that, and I am awfully regretting about it. It's a challenge of my stamina. I really can't take it sometimes and I will just fall on the bed, and eventually a plan to nap will become sleep. In the end, nothing is done and I will wake up filled with regrets.

Anyhow, the worst is yet to come. I don't think I will be able to rest properly until April. And even so, there's finals in April and, yeah, just imagine the tension level.

It's really tiring. And the frustration of being unable to meet my own expectation makes things worse. I hate to say this but I really need to instill more determination in myself. Again and again, I don't know why. I repeat it again and again but still... *sighs* But to be honest, if there's more time, I will definitely enjoy my assignments. But yeah I know, there's problem with my own time management too so nothing and no one to blame on (>.<)

Give me a break, seriously.

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Some short update before I run off.

• I am awfully tired. Frequent headache and tiring eyes.
  
• March is such a wonderful month.
  
• Who's willing to stay up with me for the night?
• Talk about stress, pressure and tension.
• Happy Belated Anniversary (Was supposed to be yesterday)
  

It's awfully killing

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Time for some updates on what happened on the last few days kekeke. To be frank, I enjoyed the Chinese New Year house-to-house attack so much. It was really an enjoyable + fun + awesome + fruitful visit and it really made my day *screams cheerfully* I sot already, thanks to someone *winks*

18th February 2010 (Thursday)

Received a sudden message for the so-long-ago-vice president Mr. Pua Cheng Lu, asking me weird questions on whether I am going for a date or not =.= Plus, that time I haven't even get his new phone number yet and I was kinda awkward for someone to ask me this question so abruptly. Only 2 persons managed to get into my mind - The blur Cheng Lu and Chern Hou *grins widely* And it proved me right when the person admitted himself to be the blurry XD

So on this day, Mr. Pua came to my house at around 10.30 a.m. I didn't even know he can drive already =.= And he never change since I last saw him, which was... 2 years ago? Yeah, it was that long. But somehow we still fight and zha each other like we used to lol, thanks to MSN. I am so grateful for whoever invented MSN XD

And thanks to Mr. Pua's awesome kancil, we were like being in a sauna during the ride to Chern Hou's house. This is all thanks to Mr.Pua's brilliant idea on forcing my so-called FATS out of me but in the end turned out his fats got forced out. Padan muka. *evil laugh* But karma overfired on me when I guided the wrong direction to Chern Hou's house and in the end, we had to trouble him to get us from Sunway College urgh =S Gomenasai Chern Hou! We go visit him but in the end he had to come and get us, so paiseh (>///<) So we went to Chern Hou's house, talked and slacked there and played poker there muahahaha. Chinese New Year is not Chinese New Year without some poker *winks* But unfair I tell you! All guys bully me one girl ishhh =.= But it was really fun playing with them. It was a really nice catching-up session I would say =)

Next stop was Puan Wu's house, my ex-Biology tuition teacher. Almost all tuition mates were there. Me, Kuan Zee, Kwan Liang, Cheng Lu, Feli, Mallory, Huey Ling and Kit Yew. And it was yet another nice catching-up session =p

Thanks for Cheng Lu and Kwan Liang, for feching me here and there CX


19th February 2010 (Friday)

Today starts the attack on college mates' home *evil laugh strikes back* 11.00 a.m. cute tomato came to house without informing, made me shocked (>.<) Waited for brother Ivan for one hour *ahem* Then off we go to Christy's house. Met up with her friends and gambled again LOL. After that went to Pyramid, walked a while and went back.

Got home, realised I got no key to enter the house urgh. So me and dear went for Sushi King for dinner. Sorry for delaying your go home time! (>.<)

20th February 2010 (Saturday)

Another attack! We were supposed to attack Klang's houses but plan got burst in the last minute =( So instead, we attacked Kok Han's house muahaha *spot the evil laugh* 10.30 a.m. nii-san picked me up from my house and off we go.

HOWEVER, after frequent reminder from dear, the blur me still lead the wrong direction to his house. Argh I am really a direction-blind la ishhh. Instead of Old Klang Road, we went all the way to Bangsar and KL. We were so lost until we saw MidValley and my temple then only I remembered the way to Old Klang Road. Plus, the traffic was not bad. We were really in luck, that's what I can say =)

After we got the right path and was already in Old Klang Road, we got lost again in Old Klang Road. Oh dear, I really need to polish my direction skills =S And so in the end also having to call deary Kok Han to lead us the way. Ahhhh paisehla keep on leading the wrong way me (>.<) And in the end, with the guidance from Kok Han, we reached safe and sound in his house =)

We (Me, Kok Han, Ivan) went to KFC for lunch and straight off back to Kok Han's place to do our assignments. And I realised I can do things better when there's people accompanying me. Oh dear. See how dependent I am? Not good not good aiks.


Aiyor there's lots of things I want to share but I can't write it here. Save it for next time then. Off to storyboard =p

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I had a very moodless day today.
My mood doesn't seem to be able to lift up.
No matter what happened, it remained the same.
And this time, yeah, I know exactly why.
But I'm not telling here.
Ask me if you are really concerned bout it but no guarantee I will answer you.

I realised in the past few months,
I am able to cut down the items in my wishlist.
It was supposed to be an awesome and great thing.
I am really grateful for people who helped in fulfilling it.

But why am I not happy?
I am not happy as what I had expected.

And I know why.

I used to don't know the reason behind stuffs.
But I managed to figure out at last.
Now only the action left and everything will be made clear.

I am not a good person, I admit.
Not good at all to even qualified to be called as a person.
I can still sense whatever bad ideas I have deep down in my heart and that's really bad.
I am changing, yes I am.
But Su Wern will forever remain as Su Wern and the real me will never change.

I don't deserve anything at all.
That's why whenever anyone did something good to me,
I feel guilty.

I know people will be angry of me to think like that,
But I know and sorry.
I really don't deserve it.

What I can do now is just to follow the flow.
I got no choice at all.
I don't know what to do.
Everything I do seems to turn out wrong.
I am so fed up with everything.
Honestly, I am effing tired.
I need rest.

I walked out,
And no one seems to care at all.
So I should just remain everything to myself like how I used to do.
I think it's still the best way.
Cause,
A person is still a person.
We have to be responsible for ourselves.

I will be glad if you get what I mean.

Okay then,
I will change my mindset now and stop my immature-ness.

Have a good day, guys!
No matter what, I still love all of you =)

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I am here to update as promised! Muahahaha~ I don't know what's wrong with me so just ignore the insane part (>.<) Anyway, my CNY was slightly fruitful compared with the past few years. It's none other than eat, talk, eat, talk. Yeah. And the weather was awfully hot in Melaka I swear I will melt if I stay for a week there =S

One Day Before CNY - 13th February 2010 (Saturday)

I was supposed to depart a day before but last minute changes and we decided to depart on the day itself. Traffic was not that bad except for the slight traffic jam in Nilai. Took us 2 hours to reach Melaka, around 10.30 a.m. if I'm not mistaken. Rest and had our reunion lunch at my mother's side before we headed off the Melaka Hospital to visit my grandma.

Next, we went to my father's side instead. Rest again. Then went back to mother side and came back again to have a reunion dinner with my father's side relative. Haha it's always like that. 2 reunion meals in a day.

Con of CNY : TOO MUCH FOOD = GAIN WEIGHT =S












Father's Side


Day One of CNY - 14th February 2010 (Sunday)

Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentines! My first Valentine devoted to my family. Haha well, overrated day *ahem* Honestly, after so many years of sleeping in my grandparent's house, I still can't get use to the environment there (>.<) Thus, I didn't really have a good night sleep. Woke up quite frequent in the middle of the night fighting with mosquitoes and when I actually woke up in the morning and looked in the mirror, I realised I got swollen eyes and pale face =S Plus, I still have the backache from the sleep on the floor *sobs* On this day, we went to the new shopping mall Aeon in Melaka, which to me, I still think Pyramid is way much better hehe. My cousin, apparently, became more stylish now and I kinda like the way he styles his hair. Nice =) So after that, we went to my 4th uncle's house for a gathering. Lit up the wishing light as well keke first time in my life, oh I really hope my wishes will come true *winks* Then had sushi in the house yummmmmm


















Day Two of CNY - 15th February 2010 (Monday)

I still woke up with swollen eyes O.O Went to the hospital again and got back to rest. The weather there is seriously draining out our energy *sweats* Then went to my 2nd uncle's house for steamboat session XD

Day Three of CNY - 16th February 2010 (Tuesday)

We are g0ing back to KL today. But before that, we went to pray at the temples. Tradition that is. And we went to this nice restaurant to have some big feast lunch. It cost around 1K if I'm not mistaken O.O Then off we go, home sweet home XP







I really think I had gained weight during the holidays. Like, everywhere is food and I am actually quite surprised on how I managed to eat so much more than I used to do O.O It's like, cannot stop eating. Omigosh, this is not a good sign, have to control already *ahem*.


Pro of CNY : ANGPAU and RELATIVES
Con of CNY : TOO MUCH FOOD and HOT!

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Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentines in advance! =D

• I love life, but life does not love me back =(
• My mental got problem. It keeps on playing torturing game with me.
• I want to write good English. Like, those which can catch people's attention when they read.
• I am going back to my hometown Melaka tomorrow for CNY.
• (Continue from up) Going back hometown = No Internet connection.
• (Continue from up again) No Internet connection = No life.
• There's so much things to do, but so little time. WHY?!
  

• I got tons of stuff to do. THIS IS NO CNY

• I want angpau!!! =D
• I am still working when I am celebrating CNY in my hometown. First time in my life.

• I hope I am doing the right thing.
• I hope everything will be fine.
• Sorry for all the sudden mood swing and immature thinking, dear =( I will be fine.
• I need help!!!
  
• Somehow, with all these workload, I still think life is wonderful. I am weird and I know that.
• I really need to clean up my room. It looks like a rubbish den =S
  

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Aloha! Finally some proper update. You got no idea how torturing it was in the past few days =(

• I love life as how it is now; except for some flaws yeah. Terrible flaws which will ruin it anytime now.
  
• Assignments nearly make me crazy, but thankfully I still managed to stay on the cliff without jumping down XD
• I ruined one of my assignments terribly. Learn from mistake *sighs*
• Fire up fire up XD
• Cut hair again before Chinese New Year!
• I can't feel the Chinese New Year mood much this year (>.<)
• I got a feeling this semester will end really fast.
• Life is hard yet interesting. Live it meaningfully.
  
• I am recovering fast muahaha.
• I feel bad for tomato for a reason =(
• I realised I can't stand later than 12.00 a.m.
• I am very grateful for what Leo had taught me.
  

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I don't know how long more can I take this.
It's driving me crazy.
I hope I know what I can do so at least I won't feel so empty now.
It is so exhausting and so tiring.
It's consuming me from inside and I am so worn out I feel like dropping everything down.
Give me a break. Urgh.

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• Surprisingly, I managed to wake up early today without feeling tired.
• Surprisingly again, I slept at 11.00 p.m. when the next day is a holiday.
• My laptop was angry at me for ignoring it for a whole night so it decided to continue hibernate and ignored me when I wanted to turn it on this morning.
  
• I totally adore how Photoshop manage to turn something into something else.
• Legion is a nice movie but I think it ought to be longer.
• I speak a lot today. Hyperactive-ness =S
• I just love to spend time with you. Tell me why?
  
• My dad asked me : "What do you want if I say I want to give you a present?". I said : "NDS". Daddy protested : "Don't want phone meh? " I got excited : "Eh, I want. A Cybershot one." I am so going to revenge on someone kekekeke.
• I am very passionate today. Don't know why (>.<)
• I enjoy doing the assignments but the after-effect after I completed it is scary. =S
• I need energy booster. Seriously.
  

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There's a lot of things I need to do.

• I need to tidy up and clean my room.
• I am very tired now but I know it's not the time to sleep =(
• I get frequent headache now ( or migrain? ) especially after 5.00 p.m.
• I wonder why the weather becomes hotter and hotter each day (>.<)
• I need to focus in my assignments.
  
• I desperately need a nap. Can I have one? Please? =(
• I got so much homework to do!
• I need to update my calendar.
• I got an enjoyable day =)
• How can you be more and more lovable day by day?
• Why is the internet so slow everytime when I need it? Grrr.
• Photoshop is fun when you know how to use it =)
• I am downloading songs like crazy now. I need them to stay awake (>.<)
• My bed is influencing me to sleep!!! Grrr!!
• I don't mind dealing with Photoshop if I have enough strength and time.
  

Procrastination. Why do we do that? Cause we are just too reluctant to start our work. I do that. And I am still doing it now. I need motivation. I need strength and I need focus.

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Shino says :

• Today I drove my daddy again =)
  
• The weather is awfully hot!
• I hate the road today.
• Assignments piling up again. Cannot breath =(
• I think I screwed up the first assignment I handed in. But no regrets cause I did tried my best =)
• Today is not a good day. Hate it.
• People are not in your condition. THEY DON'T KNOW.
• I forgot who was I today. And I just regained my memory.
• I am being so-not-myself today.
• Today's dinner is porridge. Don't like cause of the heat.
  
• I think I just break peoples' heart today. And I think I just make more people hate me =(
• Can time allow me to slack today? I am really tired =(
  

I need to overcome this. But it's too hard. Energy draining out. What are you doing, Su Wern? I tried, but I am tired. There's a limit to everything.

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