Omigosh. Tiredness just came to say hello :( I got a question here. When I am tired, I will take a nap; but after the nap, I will still continue to feel tired. But if I don't take a nap, I will still feel tired; and when I feel tired, I am not productive in my work. So how? :(

Am I the only one feeling so? Or have our relationship just become closer? No matter what, even if I am having some sort of illusion, I still want to believe that it's true. For you are always the only one who will stand by me whenever I am in need of anything. Thank you, Tomato :)

Work, work, work! I need to rest my brain. It is having issue with me and refuse to cooperate with me now. Sorry. I know I overwork you, brain. I will let you have a rest first so work with me kay? Cheers :)

No one can say he/she is better than anyone, because even so, the person will keep on improve to be better than you. You cannot expect yourself to be the best. But what you can do is just to do what you have to do and make sure it's the best and you get the best out of it. In the end of the day, your competitor will not follow you to your grave. They won't even follow you throughout your whole life. So why do you have to torture yourself so much by comparing yourself with others? I mean, yeah, it's glorious to be better than others, but in the end of the day, you will still walk different path with the 'others'. So in conclusion, what we can do now is just to, do what we have to do, and try your best. Not for others, but for ourselves. No one but yourself is qualify to judge yourself. I am so tired with all the competing here and there. I am going to do what I think it's best for me from now on. Life is amazing and it will always be :) Enjoy what you are doing, if you are not enjoying it, stop doing it.

It had been a long time since I posted my own camwhore picture here :P


Like, seriously. I was feeling so heartwarming the whole morning till the evening and my mood suddenly turned to weird at night. Omigosh.

It had been how long since we last spent our personal time together, Tomato? You know, the day was so awesome and so heartwarming and so sweet that I had my heart constantly melted the whole day? I don't know the exact words to describe it but seriously, every single second spent with you are so awesome nothing can replace it. ( I don't know whether I should really write all these words out here instead or the other nest but really, I want to describe my day here :P ). Even though we seem to see each other like almost everyday, but really, every time I see you, the same feeling keeps on striking back. It's impossible for me get used of feeling like that. Seriously, how you manage to do that? :P Anyhow, it was a really nice and heartwarming day spent with you. I guess it would be a long time more before we can spend time with each other like this again :( But anyhow, tomato, I will be there no matter what, when, how ( yes, I am polishing my driving skills on how to get to your house bahahaha ), why, so please and please and please do not hesitate if you need anything from me. You know, after today, I felt like I had been slapped awake. Like, seriously. I finally realize the reason behind why I actually, you know, concern about you so much. Want to know? Ask me personally. Muahaha :D

The night was all about the farewell party for my dear old friend a.k.a. primary school classmate Mr. Looi Shi Hao. He will be departing to Australia to further his studies soon. Why is everyone leaving? :( Thinking back, time spent with him during our primary years are really a memorable one. I used to tutor him all the way through primary and we used to sit next to each other. He used to be a quiet boy, or maybe a shy guy, but now he is a good speaker and perhaps, a better talker than I am :P But I kinda feel awkward the whole night I was there. I mean, yeah I did talk with people and had a nice time with them, but you know, I also don't know how to describe my feelings, but only one conclusion can be reach: Polish your communication skill, Su Wern :) I still feel like I can be the most comfortable with tomato =/

Anyhow, it was truly a fruitful day. Looking forward (?) to the workload marching its way up :)

I've got lots of things in my head now but I simply do not know which to talk first. Okay, let me make things clear first. There are tons of stuff to do this semester, awesome short semester consisting of 7 weeks, the 2nd week just comes to an end and the stuff we have to do is seriously piling their way up :S Stress level? Can't really say that it's high now ( or maybe it's not as high as last semester I wonder why ), but yeah, it's there. Oh maybe it will continue to increase once the work accumulate (>.<) But it all comes back to the mindset. It seems like every semester I am reminding myself on this. But somehow, I feel myself more stable this semester. Maybe there's something wrong in-between, which explains the slight uncomfortable feeling I am having now, but I am going with the flow, like what I had decided to do since the starting of this semester. It will be the way I work things out this semester. It is so tough. Like, everything is so tough. I find it tough, but the scare feeling or the stress feeling is not there yet. Like I said, maybe because it's just the beginning. But it's okay, we will make it through. It's either everything will end it well, normal, or bad. The outcome matters the most ( for me ).

I got so many things to say but I forgot what to say. Weird much? Haha, I know. And another thing I know is, I have a life and I am going to enjoy it to the max :D

I am basically knocked out every single day when I reach home. The tiredness just attacks me every time I step into room. But somehow, I don't feel the tiredness when I am outside. Weird? Hmm. But I guess it makes sense, because I know how comfortable my bed is that my body cannot stand it so it starts to rebel with my brain. Wow, I am actually thinking from the point of view of my body. Awesome much? :) Anyhow, everything seems to progress quite smooth now. I just hate the fact that my body gets worn out so fast and I desperately need more energy to keep myself moving on. Even now I feel like sleeping although I just woke up from a nap. And apparently, if I am not careful with it, my nap will eventually change into sleep. I can be knocked out at 7.30 p.m. and wake up at 9.00 p.m. but I can also open my eyes at 7.00 a.m. the next morning as well. See how awesome am I? :D But I should have no complaints. Tomato is more tired than me and whenever I see it, I feel so bad :( Seriously need to get use to this situation as soon as possible. Now where is the owl-Su-Wern? :D :D

It had been that long since I wrote something? Like, seriously? Oh dear. And basically there's nothing interesting in my life these days. No worries I still feel the happiness in me :) And basically work are all piling up. I totally like my work but as usual, too much in a day will kill off my poor body :( But, basically I am still alive, enjoying life and still feeling happy :D And basically, there's lots of basically used right? Haha, well it just came off my head so there you go :P So, basically, there's how it had been for the last few days I did not update. Will update when something comes into my mind. Adios :)

Everyone wants to be successful. I bet you are one of them too, right? But everyone has their own definition of success. To some, being at the top and earning buckets of money are considered successful to them; To some, to be able to have a complete and happy family means it's successful to them. Everyone's aim is different, thus, the different definition of success.


To me, my definition of success used to be myself able to make an entrance. To make noise. It is still my aim, but it's no more a major aim of mine. Now, for me, to be successful means to be able to live the way I want to live. The highest priority would be happiness. Life is so short. And there is only one life for Lim Su Wern. I don't want to waste it.

To me, the definition of success is to be able to gain recognition for what I do, and to gain happiness from there. To live life happily and completely without wasting a single second of it. To be the only unique person who is not influenced or affected by any other person or substance. That's my definition of success. Can I achieve that? Yes. I believe I can :) It's hard. But yes. It's possible.

Things are starting to stabilize now, although I haven't regain 100% consciousness on myself yet but it's coming back no worries :D Anyhow, I really like my mood today. The mood is just awesome. It's a normal day, but somehow, I feel very relieved and very stable in my emotion. I wonder what happened. Because I assumed it will be a challenging day due to the lack of sleep and confidence when I woke up this morning :S

Talking about confidence, I ought to boost back my confidence, like, as soon as possible. But I guess it will all come back when I regain all of my "consciousness" hehe. It's gonna be another challenging semester no doubt but take things step by step and go with the flow will be the best way for me to manage things this semester :) Oh, not forgetting about the passion and determination as well. I find the mindset and emotion is awesomely important in managing stuffs. But after going through all the dramas, I think I had grown at least a bit... tougher? :P

p/s : Have I lost myself? I think I changed. But now, it's yet another challenge for myself. Yes, if I want, I can :)

Semester 4 just comes like this. I assure you that this semester is going to be a lot more tougher than the past semesters, adding to the fact that it is a short semester and by knowing short semester, everything will be in a rush. But that's not the only reason why this semester will be tough. Just the starting of the semester, my mind had been seriously unstable and I am dealing with frequent near breakdowns situations. It would be undoubtedly, really really hard for me, having this unstable mind ( which I am pretty sure there is no cure to it and that it will be continuing on till the end of the semester ). I myself also not sure whether I can survive the semester or not but, I can just hope for the best :)

Anyhow, I need to concentrate. And I need someone to talk to. But I feel bad to constantly disturbing tomato :( But anyhow, please hope that he slaps me awake so that I won't feel bad talking to him *sniffs* 2 months. Su Wern, 2 months. 8 weeks. Please survive this and breath out loud. I guess you won't be seeing me in the usual state during theses days. Like, seriously. I am so not myself anymore I think I had threw away what I used to be. Everything of me is so unstable I don't know what I can do about it :(

Communication Research to me, is yet another Media Issue research. But of course this will be so much tougher. My mind is in a mess now. I need some rest. Toodles.

Omigosh tomorrow starts the new semester! Holidays sure passed by fast, isn't it? To be frank, I don't think I am being fruitful and productive during the holidays. 85% of my time is being spent at home, doing nothing but facing the computer, the TV, and the bed. And thus, most of my time was spent in my room, planting mushroom, harvesting it, and opened up a new farm. Lifeless much? It sure is. Rather than having nothing to do, I think I barely have the mood to do anything. Lazing around all day and occupying my mind with unhealthy stuff is just going over the extent. I ought to put a stop to it and start to enjoy my holiday but I got no solution to it. So end up I was staying in the abyss during my whole holiday. Oh dear, pathetic me :(

But anyhow, there's no use regretting now. Holidays end today and semester starts tomorrow. It will yet be another hectic one but I will still give it another try. Besides, I don't plan to continue building my bungalow in the abyss now so I will start looking for solutions to things I am feeling depressed about. It's all for the best so I think yeah, should do that. Because if I don't, things will just get worse and by the time of it, everything will be too late. I don't plan to give up on life just like this. There's still chance of reviving it and I am sure if I try hard, I would be able to solve it :)

Anyhow, enjoy your last day of holiday to the max and equip yourself well enough for more challenges ahead! Tata! :D

I think... I found out the reason behind everything. And I find myself immature. You know what? I should go out more often, to explore more of the outside world so that I can see more. Staying whole day indoor and shutting off your mind is just not the way. I nearly ( nearly ) destroyed my whole life. What was I doing? But luckily I realized it earlier. There's still chance for me to mend it. And this time, I won't take the wrong step anymore.

Erm yeah, I like talking to my blog, that's why I keep on spamming it with new posts :P One thing is, I feel like I can talk to the blog about anything. Because I do not need to consider it's feelings, in fact, I do not need to consider much. Somehow, spilling everything on the blog makes me able to calm down; to really think about stuff rather than rolling on the bed and experiencing endless insomnia. It's yet another awesome part of the blog :D

You know, sometimes, people just do not consider of others feelings. Or maybe not they do not, they just not concerned about it. It happens to me, like, all the time? But I am learning to endure with it. It's just life, Su Wern. Get through it. Well, I am not blaming people for being like that. It just makes sense, kay? Every single individual is different. Seriously. It might hurt so much but what can you do? Not like there's anything you can do, right?

It's indeed, a really sad thing. But, I am learning how to cope with it. Who knows? Maybe I am able to get used to the pain and the hurtful feeling? Haha! It would be awesome, right? :D

You know, sometimes I say I don't mind, but it's seriously tearing me up inside. I felt like dying every time I say I don't mind but unconsciously, I mind a lot. No, don't get me wrong. My mind don't mind, but my heart does, that's why it's torturing me. But, for the good of everyone, including me, I have to be don't mind. Don't get me? It's okay :) I wonder what will happen to me in the end? I feel like I had been giving out too much without taking. Should I just stop doing so? I got a bad feeling I will end up killing myself :(

Edited @ 12.30 a.m.

In the end, I am just too scared. To lose you :(

If anyone ever ask me what's happiness, I would most probably answer him/her with a "don't know". I am still looking for my own definition of happiness. I might look happy; I might look like I got everything in the world that I need. Academic, I got satisfactory results; Relationship, I got the best in the world that I can only get, to the extent that I think he is the only one for me; Friends, I indeed got friends who will help me out when I need them and I do have friends who are concern about me and who are awesome to hang out with; Family, I got an awesome family which I can depend on, which is my comfort zone. What else do I need to be happy at this stage? Aren't these enough? I could easily become the happiest person on earth now. But. When I think about it, taking into account of my own feelings, I realized the answer is no.

Not that I am not happy. I am! But, happiest, nope. Why, you ask me? Am I such a greedy person to be not satisfied with I am having now? I am! I am very grateful and I really do appreciate what I have now. But why am I not happy?

You know, I guess this is quite fair. In life. I got everything I have. So, to make it more sense, I must sacrifice something too to maintain what I have now. No one can guarantee what will happen in the future. It's so unpredictable sometime it's just scary. I am indeed, sometimes, not happy with some situations, but, I don't plan to turn the situation around to make myself happy. Because, I got a feeling that even if I make myself happy, I might be creating unhappiness for myself in the future. Don't get me? Well, can't blame you. But I am sure you will experience it yourself soon enough no worries :)

Something about me is, I am too persistent. I am so used to getting what I want all the time and when something just don't go according to what I want, I will get really really pissed. This is a very bad habit of mine. But I swear I will overcome it. I swear I will. In order to protect and maintain what I have now. I will.

If anyone comes up to me and ask me : What is happiness? I guess this is what I will answer him/her : There is no such thing as perfect happiness. We make our own world. We define our own happiness. To others, it might look like you are suffering; but maybe to yourself, you are happy you are in the situation, like what I am now :) I am not saying I am some kind of masochist or what, it's just that my thinking and my mindset is different from others, and all of us are in different situations, that's what makes our thinking different. I might think of a situation from a certain perspective, but others but think from another perspective, so sometimes, it's just hard to understand one another, you get what I mean? :)

To me, there is no perfect happiness. The happier you are, the more depressed you are. You might feel like being in heaven when you are happy, but when you are down, you feel like you are being in hell. For me, it's like this. I can't control my own feelings, and sometimes I think I might had overdo things. But, I really can't control, it's all automatic thinking. I don't want to feel like that but my emotions and my feelings can't lie, they can't escape, because it's the truth that I am feeling this way. Sometimes I tend to escape from it, but even if I managed to escape once, or twice, the same feelings will come back. What am I going to do then? Escape again? And even if I chose to do so, how many more times will I chose to escape again? Does it sound pathetic? Do I look like a coward? But yes, I admit. Escaping is so easy, isn't it? By escaping, you no need to face so much heart-tearing moments. You no need to feel so pain and so hurt that makes you cry non-stop ( believe me, it happens to me ).

But after all the chaotic moments; after I regained my consciousness and after I finally decided to look back at the pathetic me, I realized how pathetic I was. I used to be, so cheerful, so happy-go-lucky, so don't-care-much-of-the-world; but the me now is the exact opposite of what I used to be. Do I really changed that much? How?

There's is no perfect happiness. Sorrow is always accompanying it. I can't be selfish. If I have to experience happiness, I must experience sorrow as well. It's just fair. Making sense. Right? Life is so weird. Really really weird. I think even so, I will continue to tear. I will continue to feel like my heart is being teared apart. But, I am not willing to give up. And I am not willing to destroy it myself as well.

No matter how much I grow, or how mature I am, I am still a girl. Having too sensitive a feeling sometimes is really not a good thing. But if only I know a way to endure it. However, I think the solution that's able to make me calm down the overflowing emotions in me must be really really really strong; like, it must be able to attract LOTS of my attention to be able to really grab me away from the abyss. But in another way, sometimes I think it's better for me to remain this way. Because it proves how much I care. I am happy that I actually do feel this way :D

Did my hair today and hopefully it won't look weird :S Personally I think it's okay. So-so. At least there's some changes there XD

Do you think of me as much as I think of you? :)

I was flipping through the past a lot recently. I found myself lost ( and still ) so I guess I was trying to find an answer to get out of this situation. Flipping through my days in the past made me realize lots of things. And in the end, there is only one conclusion that can be made -- My past is a total failure. To be exact, I realized that my present is so much more better and so much more contenting than my past. Maybe because I had grown mature? Or it's because of something else? I don't know what's the cause of it but the only thing I can be certain of is that I am in fact, a better person than the past.

Maybe because now I have a dream. Not like I don't have one in the past. But the dream, which eventually becomes my motivation now, is so much more firm and certain than my previous one. I see how I gave up easily in the past; how I did not even put in any effort to gain success; and how I blame so much on myself. It's so not contenting and now I feel like my whole past life was so wasted.

I actually felt embarrassed when I look at them. It's like.. the life by then was like so different from my life now. It's like, I had become a totally different person. I have no idea how this happen. But I am happy with what I am now. At lease I feel more alive, compared to the past.

Yes. I do have my dreams in the past. But why am I not working hard to achieve the dream? What happened to the motivation? I guess it was because my dream is so far away it seems impossible. But now, I got a different dream. It's a more realistic dream. This dream, when I put in lots and lots of effort in order to reach this dream, I don't feel scared, somehow. I feel like, I am one step closer to it. Unlike last time, when I used up lots and lots of effort, I will still doubt whether this will work or not. I did not have enough confidence. But now, it's different. I know it will come true.

Life is full with choices and decisions to make. Sometimes, we have to sacrifice something in order to get something. We can't have everything. There was once, when I was faced with two paths, one leading to the different future. But now, I am facing one path only. There may be small paths along the way, but there is only one ultimate goal.

I am so much more clearer with my path now. I am starting to understand how thing's happen and why things happen. It's going to be a good path. I am sure of it :)

How can I forget the most important thing?! Yeah, I was slapped awake (>.<) Hopefully everything will be better soon :)


Edited @ 1.19 p.m.

I got a series of weird nightmares for the whole night. It was awesomely hard for me to sleep properly the previous night. I was frequently awaken by the nightmares and when I continued my sleep, the nightmares continued. I guess it's because I went to bed with worries.


Edited @ 11.10 p.m.


It was yet another great night. Love you tomato :) All the times spend with you are so precious. Hopefully tonight can sleep nicely :D

Aloha! I am back with my own laptop and yes I am delighted because finally I got Windows 7 equipped in it! :D The joy of getting something I long for. Awww~ The best feeling I would say :D I think I made a right choice upgrading my laptop's OS from the previous Windows Vista Home Premium to this newly installed Windows 7 Home Premium ( Well although Weng Loong told me not to fall in Microsoft's marketing trap lol! ).

Compared with Vista Home Premium, I would say Windows 7 is much more organized. Neater in the way the items are arranged. I absolutely love the idea of pinning programs to the taskbar and group the programs running under the same pin. It saves a lot of space and especially for people like me, I really don't like to see my taskbar in a mess with all the stuff popping up and and there :P

And I absolutely love how the wallpaper changes every time. I love freshness :D And the way to personalize it is absolutely awesome. But, is this myself or the screen resolution seems to be clearer and crispier than Vista? Nice :)

So far I have no complain on the newly installed software. It's working pretty fast and I am satisfied with the speed. Graphic-wise, I am happy with it as well. Oh, not to mention the transparency. Another love :P I had tried out most of the software and it seems that everything is working perfectly well. So there should be no worries on software not working for assignments :P

Well, in conclusion, I am happy with how the new OS works now. No regrets! :D Oh oh! And thanks for all the suggestions given advising me to upgrade it. I will see what else I can do with it. Toodles! XD

Updating using my sister's laptop now :) My Toshiba-kun is currently in the "hospital". Why? The DVD ROM is having problem. It can't play any CD! :S Thus, in the same time, I decided to upgrade it to Windows 7 as well, thus the asking for suggestion. Anyhow, my sentences sound weird, right? Brain not functioning well at the moment. But I am really delighted to be able to change the OS hehe. A new fresh look, at least. Just hope that there won't be any trouble later on. I will be greeting back my laptop tomorrow. Really can't wait for it :D

One week left till new semester starts! Kinda excited now. Haha, kena slap :X But really. I had been planting mushroom, even planning to open a new farm at home for two whole weeks since semester break started and I feel awesomely useless :S But I do some reading in the same time so it was still okay for me. BUT STILL. I know the coming semester will be hectic but I am willing to take up the challenge, hoping I got the determination and passion all the way as well :)

Alright, that's all for now. Will update. Toodles! :D

Edited @ 11.32 p.m.

I realised the more ferocious the competition is, the more I strife to be better. This is applied to all areas. Is it a good thing? Might be mentally disturbing though, but I know tomato is always there to hear me out ( still feeling bad on what happened yesterday T.T ). Maybe. But if you ask me whether the journey is more important, or the outcome/result is more important, I used to say the journey, but now I realised it is applied to different things. For relationships, I always want the whole journey when we are sharing the bond together to be always and all-time fruitful; but for other things, I would really sacrifice a lot during the journey to gain the best outcome. So which is the right answer? I think I will stay neutral for the meantime :)

p/s : I really like to type :D

...and yes, it should be this way. I realised I had been considering too much of other's views on me and I am so going to change this. Life is so short. I will be myself and live as myself. Although in the end some situations might need me to put on the mask but I will still consider of myself more first rather than others. Life is just.. too short.

Imposers. Seriously. They are getting on my nerves. If you want to lie, please at least lie better, make more sense, and don't let me find out can? It's so enraging to hear all those lies again and again when I know you are lying.

I just went through 2 weeks of holiday, staying at home planting mushroom and I am proud to say ( or even, quite shocked ) that, I am still alive. The plan to train myself into an otaku failed badly. What I did in the holidays were just reading, online-ing, gaming, watching, sleeping, eating. Any productive from there? Yes, I would say. I've learned so much I feel so contented :) I don't think I've wasted my holidays although people might say I'm insane when they know what I am doing actually. But. I am just being myself :)

Semester 4 coming soon. Ready?

Modified @ 11.45 a.m.

Oh by the way, I have seen how people changed and how they wagged their tails to get close to people who claimed themselves to be so high above others and it disgust me a lot. Seriously, what's wrong with them? Get your own life man.

Oh, and I am obsessed with collecting wallpapers now. The awesome graphics. Lots and lots of love :D

Modified @ 3.00 p.m.

I am sending in my laptop for reformatting soon. So.. Stick to Windows Vista or upgrade to Windows 7? Any suggestion? :P

Things happen without you having the slightest expectation. I don't know what I should feel now. Happy? Guilty? But the exact feeling I am having now is relieve and regrets. When things change, my thinking tends to change as well. It's not easy and not appropriate for me to talk to anyone about my feelings sometimes because it will end up me irritating or annoying people.

But, sometimes I also don't know because knowing the fact that I am living in a constantly changing world really scare me out sometimes. Even when something is in your expectation, next second you know, it's beyond or even out of your expectation.

It is hard for people to understand my feelings sometimes. Because it is so constantly changing I myself also do not know how to manage and control it. The frequent voice ringing in my head has indeed created an impact in my mind. Instead of opening it up, I think my mind now is closing up instead. It's not a good thing mind you.

Karma working? I think soon. Ish I am so scared now. Oh dear. Better equip myself with sufficient weapon first :P

p/s : It was so close! Oh dear! Is it a curse or what? :S Work harder! Woosh! :D
p/s 2 : Oh by the way, I decided to give up on some stuff. It's for my own good because I realised there's no use holding it anymore longer.
p/s 3 : Mind you! Relationship does not affect my studies! :D

I hate the me now who cares too much about things when no one even bothers to care about it.
I hate the me now who put in so much effort but no one seems to appreciate it.
I hate the me now for being a fool in doing so much even when I know that people will not even care about it.
I hate the me now who is being so pathetic.
I hate the me now who is wasting so much time on unnecessary stuffs.
I hate the me now who is allowing people to use and take advantage of me even when I know it.
I hate the me now for losing my own true purpose in life.
I hate the me now for being the one making the moves all the time.
I hate the me now for being such a typical girl.
I hate the me now for getting hurt over and over again although I realised I will end up so in the beginning.
I hate the me now for being a puppet to others.
I hate the me now for being unable to see.
I hate the me now for being too immature.
I hate the me now for being such small existence for others but still willing to sacrifice for them.
I hate the me now for having myself to be on standby mode all the time even when others do not need me.
I hate the me now who forget about myself.
I hate the me now.
Therefore, I am going to put a stop to this.
Let's see what will happen and prove to me that you really want me in your life.
I AM DONE TRYING.

"Our Attitude Towards Life Determines Life's Attitude Towards Us."


It's time to look at a bigger picture, Su Wern. Live in the present not in the past, but in the same time, look at all the possibilities that might happen in the future. Because, what you are living for today; what you are working for today will be what you are craving for in the future. You work hard for the future right? Yes, the present is important, but the future is more important. Because one thing certain about this is, your present will eventually become your past but your future will always remain as your future. It's an ongoing journey that every single soul in the world has to take responsible for and has to face. You decide your own future, lady. Look at the bigger picture.

In terms of academic, yes, I am working hard. What for? For a better life in the future. I want my family to live happily. I want everyone I love to be able to live comfortably without any sufferings. I want a better life for myself and everyone I love. I want to be looked upon of and to prove to people that I am not as what they think and that I am better. I want to become not just a passer-by but someone happening. All these matter to me because I want to live my life to the fullest. I live my life once. Life is short and I want it to be the best when Lim Su Wern lives it.

In terms of friends. Everyone knows friends come and go. No one really stay in your life forever. The true soulmate and true friends are only those who cherish you enough to even make an effort to stay contacted with you. Or else, a friend will just be another passer-by in your life. Some friends make it to your future and some don't. I am not saying that I don't appreciate friends. I do. But coming back to the reality, it happens all the time. Farewell will always come in the end and no one is to avoid it. It's the reality.

In terms of relationship, it's not only a now thing. I used to not think about it much but now I do. Relationship is different from friends. If it is fated, it will remain with you throughout your whole life. We will see each others' strengths and weaknesses; we will see each others' beauty and uglyness; we will be exposed to things that we thought we will never see. Are you ready for that, Su Wern? I can't be sure whether I am or not. But, what I am sure is, I will make myself ready for it. I will make myself ready for whatever I am going to face. I am going to look at the bigger picture now. I am not only present-oriented but also future-oriented now. That's all for the best.

"Memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose."

Looking back at pictures from the past make me feel nostalgic. The characters, the environments, the expressions... revived my feeling towards those precious things and I felt like as if I am there at this current second.





Leo Club SMKSU 2007/2008



5 Sigma 2007/2008


The high school days with all the laughter; 5 Sigma; lame jokes bursting in and out non-stop; piling high homework; gossiping about anything all the way; the precious classmates and deskmates; the sarcasm; the annoying rumours; unwanted torturing feelings; Leo Club SMKSU. Everything. It's all well gone now, left with memories stuck upon the heads. Everyone had gone to different paths, with few still remained in contact. But the memories, it will never fade.





Part of Nothing Box


The college life with all the curiosity; DMC; lecturers who never bored us; interesting classamates, soulmates, brothers, sisters; Nothing Box; subjects that put us in vain; the new study environment; the craziness of the class; the awesomeness of the people. An ongoing memory which will keep piling up and refiling the albums with more and more memories until the day we are apart.





Tormado and Hamster


The life-changing words; tomato; hamster; cuteness; lovable-ness. This memory will be accompanying me throughout my whole life. Never ever will be gone. I vowed that this will be my last and final relationship I will be in. No more fifth person. No more. I am done trying and I am blessed with finally managed to find the best one for me. I vowed, that this love will be standing in my heart until the day I passed on. Even if it shatters, I am done with it. I am done trying. It's tiring enough. I am happy, grateful, and lucky with what I have. This will be a forever memory.