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2010/09/30, 6:41 PM

Eh. How Come?

Eh, I'm confuse. Feel like wanna bang my head on the wall and get my conscious back. Eh, I think I lose myself. Eh, I'm serious. I miss a lot of feelings all of a sudden. Eh, what happened? I somehow regained my memory one year ago. Eh. Why ah? Eh. Weird lah. Eh. What will happen? Eh. I think it will be better :)

Hey. Please kindly ignore me for my temporary lost of sense. Because I thought of so much on things that had went wrong. And maybe because it's a bit too much, I started to lose a lot of sane. Eh. I actually, did went insane. Urgh. Something is definitely wrong with me. But seriously, it's okay la. Today is the day, Su Wern. That you realize something important :)

Labels: Ranting

2010/09/29, 10:13 AM

Writing: Love or Hate?

Hello! I actually have a passion towards writing :) Exclude all the fussy formats and datelines x.x I don't really mind formats if I am familiar with them but the fact is I'm not. It's a chance for me to actually learn about them, with the risk of risking my marks. But it will be fun :) I love writing haha! Actually although there's some exemptions on certain assignments which were supposed to due on tomorrow, but after I look at the calendar I realised life is not still not that easy anyway :( With 1 test and 3 assignments due on tomorrow, woah how much awesome more life can be? You know, I love writing. But I despise writing when I am tired. And I despise writing more when I have to rush for the datelines -.- Completely lose the mood.

Labels: Ranting

2010/09/27, 11:59 PM

To Play It Safe

I guess everyone is rushing assignments at this hour? Ask me what am I doing here. Yes I am doing assignments as well but yeah, brain juice just dried up and plus, it's already past 10.00 p.m., which means my brain can no longer gives me awesome inspirations, left alone ideas =( Did I answer your question? I can't work well at night. I tried. But failed badly. It turned out that something I can do it well for an hour made me wasted 5 hours on it and it turned out like a crap. Yeah, that's how bad it was. I had been trying to overcome this obstacle for a long time but my mindset is so use to "rest after 10 pm" mode that it was a really hard challenge for me to overcome. So sometimes instead of wasting time and energy doing some crap, I might as well save up the energy, rest, and do better the next day =)

Anyway, my brain is aching. Too much brain juice used up for today. It's a tension mode now. But I felt like it's not as bad as last semester, still. You don't want to even imagine what I went through. Awesome torture. Felt like the last bit of energy in the body left you and worse still, the assignment was dued in 2 hours time. It was one awesome bad experience having to deal with assignments and worse still, it's actually not my work. I mean, yeah it was, but the whole purpose of doing it was not there. So there you go, duplicate the worse-ness.

Articles are doing fine, I suppose. I think I am on the right track. But it's always nice to keep on the safe route. I used to thought of awesome out of the world method of doing my assignments but I think for this time, I would like to keep it safe =) I do love writing. If only I can write without following any format, I would had done better. But it's a learning step, right? I find it a nice chance to enhance writing skill. I love writing. I really do =) Now let's make another miracle, shall we? Let's hope ideas start pouring in now =p

Labels: College, Ranting

2010/09/26, 10:22 AM

Mass Update!

It had been a very very long time since I last updated. More than one week! Oops. Sorry! I was so busy with all kind of stuffs but I will be doing this mass update now. Although it's only one short week, a lot of things had been happening. It was just pure awesome :D

18th September 2010 ( Saturday ) -- Wedding

After like almost 10 years, I attended another wedding ceremony :) It was tomato's godsister's wedding. Thanks so much for inviting! :D

It was an awesome occasion, all the way in Bangsar :) After various experiences strolling around KL -Billboard hunting & Colleges/Universities stalking - we ( especially tomato ) kinda feel confident in finding the place and yes, we found it :D An awesome place. It was my first time setting foot in the shopping complex, left alone setting foot in the awesome restaurant. It was a magnificent day. Oh! And I tried red wine. After so long haha! Okay laugh all you want.

Darling, thanks so much for inviting. It was an awesome experience with you and your family :)

19th September 2010 ( Sunday ) -- Dad's Birthday Celebration

It was daddy's birthday! :D As usual, it was only a simple celebration. We went to have our lunch out at Chili's, Empire :) Before I commented anything about this, please note that this is my personal opinion and it has nothing to do with any organizations etc etc.

I bet you had tried Chili's before. For me, the food is a so-so. The service was awesomeeeeeeee ( fill in the blank ). Okay. Yeah. If I would to try Chili's again, I won't go to Empire's again. Yes. Boycott. I don't like it one bit. It makes me very uncomfortable. Rudeness. Hello? Never heard of 'Customer is the King' before? Some more we can endure all of the rudeness and continue with our meal, QUIETLY. It really do pissed me off. Hello? It was my dad's birthday. Ish! Boycotting. For sure.

24th September 2010 ( Friday ) -- Visit to 8TV

We went to TV3 last year. Now, we are back... to 8TV! This time's experience was far better than last year's. Because we get to see more! Yes! Even DJ's work-in-action. It was so awesome. An awesome eye-opener. We get to see the working surrounding of the people. Not forgetting awesome lecturers following us. It was so much fun. So much experience. So much awesome-ness :D Never regret chosing to go there hehe.

You know what? I actually watched 8TV E-News ( a.k.a. 八八六十事 ) and I always thought the studio was big until I get to see the place myself. Awesome shock haha! Even our tour guide told us not to be fooled by the camera trick. And you know what, the studio's name is basically 'Mini Studio' and it can barely fit 5 people in one studio. Awesome camera tricks not? :P I was pretty much amazed :) But at least I got to see the studio, touch the things inside, with my own eyes and my own hands. Awesome experience haha!

Camera tricks huh. Let's do it ourselves! Here we go....

TADAAAA!! Haha! :D :D

The trip was a short one. But it was awesome fruitful. The best part is we even get to see how the DJs work on Fly.FM. As in, really work-in-action. It was so awesome. Salute lots. Not easy becoming a DJ haha! Really salute them. They can really go in and out of character easily. And the way they manage crisis in just a few seconds is seriously magnificent. Really an awesome eye-opener for us. Overall, awesome trip! :D

25th September 2010 ( Saturday ) -- Movie Marathon & Steamboat

Resident Evil & Pirahna. BOTH gave me a sick and disturbed feeling x.x It's so awesome gross! Omigosh! Yuck! Eew! Okay. So it was another awesome day out with tomato. Everything was awesome and nice :) One day breather for both of us before we become insane due to the workload haha. Okay la. It wasn't that bad but I really don't like blood x.x

This picture is really sweet :P It's actually salt and pepper bottles in a restaurant. Cute, right! Awww~ :P

Before the movies, we went to this restaurant near the cinema. The price is really worth it, in my opinion, and the food is really filling :) I personally like the Pan Fish Fillet. Awesome :D Nice catch-up with the movies haha. It had been a long time since we watched one. Really enjoyed the moments. Although it's gross, yeah x.x.

After the movies, we went to Tasty Pot for steamboat session, celebration for tomato's sister :P Awesome food haha! Thanks tomato again for inviting! :D Nice eating session :) The days were awesome. Feeling relieved :)

Now back to reality. Assignments calling haha! Will try to update as much as I can because due dates are waiting for me and seriously, need to start doing work :P Lovely!

Labels: Day, Love

2010/09/16, 10:43 PM

It's No More the Same

Facing the mountain of assignment in front of me, I seriously feel myself without a life. Oh, well I do have a life. But assignments are involve in it. It's not like the assignments are killing, but there are certain issues that had been disturbing me since the beginning of the week.

In some time, we really must learn how to be patient and give in. It's no use winning something when you know it's against yourself. Sometimes we just have to be considerate. I don't know but it seems hard to be able to do so. We have to understand that all of us are merely human beings and we do mistake along the time. Most important is that we learn from our mistakes and never to repeat them again. And then again, it all comes back to the heart. If someone really have the intention to do something, they will have the motivation to conduct it.

It was really hectic in these few days. Seriously. It's so hard to sort out everything and really, you won't like being in our shoes. It's no more the same compared to last time. Everything took a 180 degree change and makes our life tougher. We are still striving through. But we just hope that we can have people's support in surviving. I've seen things that I don't want to see and no, I want to see it no more and now I can't really look at things the same way anymore.

Labels: Life, Ranting

2010/09/13, 6:54 PM

Mischievous Life

Life is awesomely mischievous. There's so much ups and downs. It's like, the more you put in, the more it will come back. And by saying 'coming back', it can really be either a positive or a negative thing. But somehow, there are some things about life that we cannot forget. Things, or in a more precise form, mindset, that we must always take as a guideline in living life. Here are some reference:

Personality
Don't compare your life with others. You don't know their journey and you don't know what they are going through.
Know where you stand. Keep your limits.
Don't waste your precious energy on something that will bring you no good.
Dream more while you are awake. Be realistic in the same time.
Envy is a waste of time. Look at yourself and you will realize you already have what you need.
Forget issues of the past. Because those are obstacles to the happiness in the present.
Life is too short to be wasted on hating people.
N0 one can define your own happiness except yourself.
Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.
Smile and laugh more.
You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Community/Social
Call your family often.
Give something good to others everyday.
Forgive when you can. Everyone deserves a chance.
Spend more time with people over the age of 70 and below the age of 6.
Try to make at least 3 people smile a day.
Don't mind much on what people think about you. You be who you want to be, not what people want to see.

Life
Do the right thing.
No matter how good/bad a situation is, it will change sooner or later.
Get rid of anything that stops you towards happiness.

This is just some basic stuff. But we are always forgetting these. We live our life. No one else.

Labels: Life

2010/09/12, 8:18 PM

Sorry :(

I am so wrong. I feel so bad for hurting you. I am such a bad person. I don't know what happened to me. I felt very pain. But, no matter what is it, I will still make you happy. Be with you. I will always always be with you. This is a decision I made long time ago, and I have no intention to give up on that. I am sorry :(

Labels: Love, Ranting

, 12:47 PM

Things Are Not The Way They Should Be

I saw things that I don't want to see and I nearly burst into tears =( Why do I have a feeling that this is going to be hard? Why my perception of things are proving me wrong again and again? I got a feeling I am being blindfolded by my own esteem and confidence. Things are not what I'm assuming/expecting it to be. It's too different. I can't interfere, even though I want to so much. It's too much difference. It's all just forcing here and there and I seriously don't like the idea of it. Now I really don't know whether I am making the right decision or not. Everything I've found out seems to screw everything up. It's so hard for me to balance everything out now. I use to believe, and trust that everything is just fine. But something told me that it's not. And when I go further down to check out what's happening, I saw things I don't want to see. What I am understanding now is too shallow. I hate this fact of me. I don't really know. And why am I putting myself in such a situation? I hate this issue. A lot.

Labels: Ranting

2010/09/11, 8:05 PM

I Know You!

You know what? I actually know you. It's just either me being too obsessive, or being too possessive. But I know one thing for sure -- I think too much. I feel like slapping myself awake. What am I doing? What else do I ask for? I am already so lucky. I feel so stupid. Seriously. I should take the initiative, not waiting for the whole time. It's just the heart that matters. There's no use waiting. And I should clear my mind off things. I am too crumpled up in my small brain. I need some space to breath. I need to clear things off so I can see clearer. It's enough suffering. Enough. No more. Things will be better. It will be. Enough of drama. Firming up the heart. Assumption kills.

Labels: Ranting

2010/09/10, 11:37 PM

Who Are You? ; Temple

I felt like I just sat on a time machine and went back time. After I got off the time machine, I felt so unfamiliar to things that I thought I know that I need the help of music to get me back on track. I feel totally unfamiliar. To what I thought I know. Do I still know you then? Are you just putting on a mask? Or had I changed you? Or your attitude, the original you, is immune to me alone? Tell me. How can I look at you with the same way I used to look at you? You are like someone so unfamiliar and so new to me that I feel like I barely know you. I can't help but look at you differently. You changed? Or only towards me? I am feeling very weird right now. I feel like I don't know you anymore. Are you still the you I know?

Anyhow, my grandparents are currently at my place. Yes since yesterday. And after for I-seriously-got-no-idea-how-long, we went to the temple.

I totally heart my father. I am alive because of him. He gives me the best he can gives. I know he cares for me. And I am really grateful to have such a wonderful father like him =')

Mommy going off for vacation tomorrow. I know I will miss her. Seriously. Especially at night. The time when we miss our love ones most. But work still goes on. Because the time will still be going on, right? No way it will stop no matter how much I hope it would ='(

You contacted me and I felt weird. Yes. I am looking at you differently now. I wonder what will happen if I did not make that single decision at that time? Or will it even make any difference? What will happen if that moment did not occur? Will you still be the same? I admit. I do not really know you at the beginning. I was afraid. Afraid that I might walked the wrong path in my life. I don't know you. Why? ='( Why are you so different? Is it because of me? Did I change you? Are you aware of what is happening now? Or I am the one being blindfolded? I can't see anything. Anymore. Tell me. Who are you?

Labels: Day, Ranting

2010/09/08, 11:59 PM

Floody Day

It was an adventurous day out. I wanted to post some pictures with this post but I am so awesome sleepy now I just want to have a date with my bed *yawns* It was a long day, traveling from Subang to Old Klang Road to Bangsar to Damansara to Old Klang Road and to Subang again. KL was in a state of awesome thunderstorm and we can see trees falling apart (?!) and flood was everywhere :S Luckily Mr.Ng is a careful driver and it's safe to be in the car with him in this situation. I assure =) He brought me to visit nostalgic places as well. So happy to see you happy =D It was a nice day :) Everything seems nice when you are doing the right thing. Especially something you like, and want to do :D Tomorrow will be an exciting day. Will update of course, this time (hopefully), with pictures :)

Okay now off to bed! Toddles! :D

Labels: Day, Love

2010/09/07, 5:57 PM

Boost Up!

Aloha! Today is seriously, coming from my heart, a fruitful day :D

When something is wrong, see what's wrong with yourself first before you start blaming others. If you are unhappy, see what you had done first before you start blaming others. If you are unsatisfied, look at yourself first before you start blaming others. Because, there's solutions to things, we just do not make the effort to take the step.

Everything is moving in a very fast pace now. I like to keep myself busy ( of course not only with work ). I would rather chose to be busy than be bored =/ Tell me I'm in the right industry :D Anyhow, just the effort is needed. I am so going back to semester 1. I am so blindfolded. But everything is okay now :) Back on track. Awesome feeling. You know what? I am going to give this a humongous shot. It will be a live or die situation but I am pretty confident with what I am doing now. I am pretty weird. No I am not, I am just one kind haha! But I am happy. Really happy. And glad. I don't know why. Maybe because I am getting back to myself. It's one awesome feeling :D

And you know what? The Dean is one awesome nice person :) It rushes out all my nervousness in meeting her once I met her. And now I am pretty much a happy and lively brat. After today, confidence level, courage level, self-esteem, all will be boosted up. This is what we call life. We experienced the worst, and we will be rewarded the best if we have the courage to overcome the worst :)

Labels: Life, Ranting

2010/09/05, 11:59 PM

Family Bonding ; Pikachu

A very fast update here because I promise my tomato to sleep once I hang the phone. Sorry darling, you are allow to bite me or bully me all you can later on :P

It was an awesome day out with the family. I once-in-a-few-weeks thing but it was really nice :) Family bonding we call that. Life can't be better :D Somehow, I feel very much alive compare to the past few months. Yes although I know the workload is piling up like nobody's business but really, that does not become an obstacle for me to be alive. I wonder why? But I guess being with the right people at the right time really helps. After all these while, we ourselves can already see who's worthy and who's not. I guess that's the main reason? :) I am okay with life as it is now. Well although yes, I think I am still very particular with certain matters but for now I will just keep myself blindfolded. As long as it does not go over my limit, I will still ignore and pretend that I did not see anything =x

Okay why am I ranting up there? I thought I was suppose to talk about my day. Haha! Nevermind. It was an awesome family day I can say. And awesome tomato day(s) as well. Although I don't see you physically, but you are always there to talk to me and I can really feel your presence with me even though you are not here with me physically. Is this even making sense? Well, to me, it does :)

I want that Pikachu so much! It costs only RM15.90 and I want it! Buy for me, pretty please? :P It's available in 1 Utama Jusco's Toy Department *hints* I got so much of a fetish towards Pikachu these day and when my sister pointed that out to me, I got so excited I just want to take a picture with you. Oh how I hope to take it home :'( Financial problem, unfortunately. Yes I am that poor.

See all the Pikachu! Omigosh I hope I can just grab one home and hug it to sleep. Eh no, I will hug it all the time. Awww! I can almost hear them asking me to bring them home :'( Okay maybe that's too much of a fetish towards Pikachu :P

p/s: I got a fetish towards formal clothing as well! Especially guys in black blazer *winks*
p/s 2: I improved in Step Mania! Aloha! :D :D

Labels: Day

2010/09/03, 5:33 PM

What With Future Generation?

I seriously have no idea why girls can have so many emotions. I am a girl too, so that includes me as well. The mood-changing moments that a girl can experience is seriously, awesomely, amazing. Hormones problems? I don't know why but this situation seems to be getting worse on my part since last year. Calm down, ladies :)

It was the usual Friday off day and it was the usual hang-out day :D Whenever we hang out, we should constantly remind ourselves to stop ourselves from bringing in work matters because it can really ruin our whole priceless moment. But for me, I wouldn't mind even if we talk about anything formal or even work whenever we hang out because I really don't trust too much on escapade =/ Especially when hanging out with your boyfriend/girlfriend. There's no reason why we should stop ourselves from talking what we feel like talking :) Imagine it. Isn't it sad when you can't even share what you feel like sharing with your boyfriend/girlfriend? Yeah. I got my principle where I just talk what I want to talk, especially with my boyfriend, no exception, no limitations :)

The usual Sushi King and the usual movie. Honestly, I really prefer GSC rather than TGV. It's more quality- & consumer-oriented than TGV. Just compare the leg space between seats, the screen size, the comfort of the seats, and also the ticket price. GSC is so much better right? Well, even the food is better. Grown Ups . Movie for the day :) Awesome. It makes me think. It's not that kind of seriously-you-need-to-think kind of thinking. It's so funny and it's so related to us. Imagine this. We are already having our technological moments now and we are still so young (yes, happy to admit that :D ). In our childhoods, what we got was board games and of course, more outdoor activities than the children these days. If it's so, what will happen to your children in the future? What kind of childhood will the experience? What will their toys be? The time is moving so fast and the society is changing so rapidly now that we ourselves can't even follow up. Really, I am worry for the future generation haha.

Anyhow, it was an awesome day :) Oh, run out of what to write. Till then! :P

Labels: Day, Ranting

2010/09/02, 7:25 PM

Random (02.09.2010)

I am stuck in my living room now because I can't go upstairs, take my clothes, and shower. Why? Repairman upstairs repairing holes on roof, no idea how to get into my room now with the humongous ladder blocking right in front of my room's door.

So anyway, how bout some luck? Really in need of some now. Writing is my thing, but not meeting people I barely know and try to dig out things from them. I know its a common thing but honestly, would people even want to entertain me? Well unless he/she is someone I know. Then it's a different story :) But seriously. It's okay. Will still do what I can do :)

Assignments are piling up to the height of a mountain now. Time management. Again, it's fun. Time management. Please stop me from repeating those two words for the third time. At least things are progressing smoothly now, no complaints :P Should be grateful with what I have now hehe.

Labels: Random

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7.) I fear the sea.
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