Am very frustrated.

I lost important files in my external hard disk and I thought I can let them go. But the truth is, I can't. So now I'm in the process of retrieving all the files I've lost. They are part of my important memories that I can't afford to lose.

It will definitely be a long process. Should I wait? Or should I not? It's 2.13 a.m. in the morning. I should be sleeping comfortably in the bed now without fussing about anything but I can't. Thinking of the lost files makes me depress. Knowing me, I can't settle down until something is solve.

Crap. This is suppose to be a peaceful night with sufficient sleep.

Aloha! This is a late update but better than nothing, right? :P Am feeling really exhausting now. Feel like sleeping so much and never wake up again but nah, I've given myself enough holidays. So say no to the I sleeping-on-bed-wonderfully plan. I wanted to update this post yesterday but fell asleep :( I didn't even feel tired but yes, I fell asleep. How? Just by sitting on the bed, so-called -- resting. This proves how comfortable my bed is and no you can't blame me if I spend too much time slacking on the bed.

And guess what? I prefer the starters over the main dishes. Except for Han's fish. Omigosh that's the best! Thanks to Fiqah, Ivan, Han, Michelle, Christy, Adrian, Carlyn, and Keat Tong to be a part of the celebration. That's so sweet of you guys! :')

On my birthday itself. Simple celebration with the family and Han @ Sakae Sushi, Subang Parade. Second time being there and I swear this will be my last visit there unless necessary. Some pictures to do the talking first! :P

It was an awesome dinner but personally I prefer Sushi King over Sakae Sushi. Loooove the sushi Sushi King :P After that, a simple birthday celebration over my house and that's my day! :D

Am sick. Wrong timing eww! :(
One day after I turned 20, I fall sick. Is this a jinx or what? But I'm a good girl. I hate and never want to fall sick at this time so I learned how to take my medicines on time. Hello tablets! Thankfully I won't need to eat any liquefied medicines. They are my nemesis! Despise them! I remember whenever I consume any liquefied medicines when I was small, I always vomit and I had to consume another dose of them after I finished vomiting. Never want to go through that again. Awful childhood experience! But I'm fine with tablets :)

Please let me be fine tomorrow :( I got lots to update bout my birthday but not in this post. But before that, I want to thank every single person for making my 20th birthday a meaningful one. Thank you :)

Let's hope that I feel better soon and I'll be able to update you with stuff :)

It's 11.25 p.m. Left eye hurting and it's giving me red eye disease ( except it's only the left eye ). I always have problems with my left eye. I think it's drier than the right eye, and it's more sensitive, thus, more troubles. Bleh.

Half an hour to my 20th. Before I start with my last 19th post ( which doesn't make sense at all since I've already started ), I want to express my appreciation to Afiqah, Ivan, Kok Han, Michelle, Christy, Carlyn, Adrian, & Keat Tong for the early birthday celebration at Tony Roma's.

Thanks awesome awesomely much!

I got shocked when the staffs started singing Happy Birthday. A whole bunch of thanks! which I have no idea how to actually bring this out to every single person who had celebrated an early birthday with me :') Thanks!

20. I never thought I would be meeting this number so soon but it's now right in front of my eyes. I never know what other meaning lies behind this number. I always thought it's just another number and turning 20 is just another leap of year forward. But people had been telling me that things will not be the same anymore. Because I'm throwing away my 'teen' ( officially ) and now embracing a '-ty'.

More to learn. A long journey. Remarkable. I got nothing else to say. Allow me to just sit here, stoned, and wait for the clock to strike 12 a.m. :)

Hello! :)

I feel contented with everything now ( perhaps just one thing missing but I'll make sure it comes into my hands one day ). It's a public holiday today but I don't feel much of a holiday anyway. Still working throughout the day but hey! I feel so happy throughout the hours. Practically it was because I'm doing something I really like and I don't feel like I'm doing work at all. It was really amusing.

And I lost track of time. Indulgence :) That's perfectly what I need now.

I wish I have 48 hours per day. Then I would have more time to spend ( & waste ). But it's not fair. Everyone has the same amount of time, including people who are successful. So, I hope I have more stamina instead. Blame my room, it's too comfortable. Hee.

2 more days to 20. I'm throwing away my 'teen' real soon. What am I feeling now? Contented. I used to reject the fact that I have to grow up so fast. But now, ( I don't know where I hear this from ) they say it's a privilege. Growing up. It means you are more mature and more adaptable to things and that people will start taking you seriously. So yeah. I already have my realization :)

It had been a while :)

Entering the 2nd week of college; assignments & projects are being magnified; everything's settling down. Final semester before I head off to internship. Give it another shot, Su Wern :)

Nothing really spectacular nor awesome had happened during my absence from the blogging world. Sometimes I just don't know what to write or what to share with you. But what I can tell you now that I am perfectly fine and am doing awesomely great now :D

I've learned and changed a lot, in terms of the communication with myself, with others, as well as lots of other stuffs. It's a new year. I will be fine. It will be an awesome year. Okay stop the crap.

I stopped thinking too much and I started to balance my focus. Do what I have to do. Get the best out of it. I can manage. I know it too well.

Perhaps I will be able to update you more later :P Till then!

These days are absolutely exhausting. 8.00 a.m. classes are more exhausting than I thought. Time to boost up stamina. I miss sleeping till afternoon :( I also miss watching ANTM on YouTube. Life is busy. Besides of work, my remaining time are used for sleep. I guess time will go on very fast this way. Wonder if it's a good or bad thing. Good luck, everyone :D This semester will be happening. You believe it will, right? It's our last semester in college anyway. So let's enjoy it to the max :D

Okay so practically I'm done with the overall view of the subjects I'm taking this semester. 2 IT subjects, 2 Communication subjects, and 1 Marketing subject.

Interactive Multimedia will definitely be interesting. I can now see all the workload coming towards me, filling up my free slots everyday. It will need effort, definitely. I got no knowledge in any flash software at all and this will definitely be a challenge for me. But let's see how I can blend myself into the subject :) I myself is interested in the outcome I'm going to produce :P

Web Development will be another interesting subject. I'm more confident in myself for this subject because I used to help others create websites & writing codes when I was in high school. It was like a freelance job without salary haha. But I know there will be a difference between what I know and what I'm learning. Prepared for it. Bring it on :D

Script writing. No need to say, it will definitely be interesting but our brain juices will go aloha! with all the brainstorming of ideas and the possibilities to execute what we have in our minds into writing. It's yet another challenge for me. Writing scripts is something I like to do. It's like my passion, second to video-editing. I know I will enjoy this. Definitely will :)

Advance Advertising. Nothing to say. Event. If we are having event this semester, this would be my 3rd event to handle during my college time. It would be another awesome experience :) I never thought of majoring in Advertising but I can foresee that this subject will be more than just Advertising alone. Perhaps it's yet another 360 branding kinda stuff. And I know it will be useful :)

Lastly, Integrated Marketing Communication. Marketing. Communication. Advertising. Promotions. It's all about 360 branding again, this time in the marketing perspective. It will be an interesting subject. I'm not against any Marketing subjects. I find them fun and easy to understand :) So yeah.

Overall, this will be a good semester, with the condition I can throw away all those unwanted distractions and focus on what I should do. But I know I can :) I'm loving the timetable. 8 a.m. classes are exhausting, no doubt. But the best part is that I can have my rest because most of my classes end at 2 p.m. It helps to conserve my energy :)

Okay, 4.0. I'm coming :)

Since when did I use up my 5 weeks holiday so awesomely fast?

First day of semester 6 is tomorrow and I still feel like I'm in holiday. Great.
9.46 p.m. You know what does it mean with college starting?

I'm pretty sure there's more no more than the list above but those are things that I really love doing during the holiday.

5 weeks is so awesomely short.

Semester 6 starts tomorrow. No matter how much I love the holiday, I need to put my priorities straight. I'm prepared for college :)

I never like to spend too much money on outfits & accessories. But now, I have a different opinion about it. Style, this is a new word I personally like a lot.

I'm going to be different this year. Mark my words. I'll not be the same internally & physically. Because if I don't do something about myself now, I'm so going to smash all my determination & passion down. So just look. See what I've become :)

It's 2.18 a.m. and I can't sleep. Or rather, I don't want to sleep.
I am being bothered by things I shouldn't put my focus into now.
It always happens at this time. Old story.

Another ranting post. Not worth reading. Nothing new. It's old story.

If only I can just ask my heart and if only my heart can answer all my questions & doubts, everything would be so easy. But no, I understand clearly that this is not the right way to face things and this is just part of life.

Sometimes there are just too many things that I want to do but I simply just do not have enough time. And when situation like this happens, I have no choice but to make decisions between important stuffs. And when decisions are being made, it means I have to give up on either one of the options, which seriously makes me paranoid with my decision.

But of course, I can assure myself that all my decisions made, no matter big or small, important or not, are thoroughly considered. I will take hours, or even days, to think over on all the possibilities & risks that might occur if I make a decision. Sometimes I feel myself being paranoid, but it's just me. I don't so things that won't bring any good to myself or even anyone involved with the decision I make.

I tend to make things more complicated, into a harder way. That's because I know things aren't that simple. I believe that everything is strongly connected with one another and the influence & impact can be so powerful even the tiniest mistake I make will cost a lot.

Been there. Done that. Enough said.

I need more time. That's what I desperately need now. But no, everyone is given the same amount of time, it's just me.

What I need? What I want? What I should do? It's all me. My decision.

A quick post.

Caught Paranormal Activity 2 & Season of the Witch today. Here's a small review :)

Paranormal Activitiy 2. I was having high expectation for the second movie because the first one scared me off and it cause me to experience insomnia for around 3 days. But it turned out that the second movie was not as scary nor impressive as the first one. It did scare me a couple of times but I didn't experience trauma after that. So much for being unable to sleep for the night haha. The quality of the picture improved a lot. It's so much clearer than the first. Perhaps it's due to Paramount :) I would give this movie a 6 out of 10.

Season of the Witch was totally out of my expectation. I was expecting something magical, some pictures with wars & battles ( yeah that expectation was met ) & a lot of different elements. But the movie turned out more towards religious beliefs, & adventures. It was a nice movie. A bit scary, though. Rated 7.5 out of 10 :)

College starting in another 2 days! As mentioned before, I personally like the new timetable and I am prepared for the new semester. It's going to be busy soon. But I know I will do everything to my best for this final semester in college. All the best to all DMC-ians as well! We will do strive through this and get the best out of everything! Oosh! :D

Malacca. It's my hometown and it's where I spend my time during most of the festive seasons. Thus, for me, the perception of the town is always filled with heat, people, tourists & cars. Malacca is such a small town with people constantly strolling along the roads with different thoughts in their heads. It's a simple town. Not too complicated, but not too easy in the same time. This time, I get to spend special moments with friends in this town in which I grew up with. And this time, when I actually set my foot into this town which I once felt so familiar with, I actually realized that the town is actually a stranger to me.

So it started off when we were discussing on the place to visit before our semester starts. Mall-strolling was our initial plan. But somehow, we wanted something special, and in the end, Malacca came into our plan. It was spontaneous, last-minute, & memorable.

10.00 a.m. was our meet-up time. We had a simple breakfast in a mamak near my house and before I know it, we were on the road to the historical town. The highway is so familiar to me. I can even tell you what billboards they have on the highway due to my frequent visit to my hometown :)

The journey was around 1.5 hour and we reached our destination. The weather was awesomely hot, but we were lucky it was not seriously hot to the extent that we can't walk.

First destination was lunch. Chicken rice balls. A famous trademark food in Malacca.

Honestly, it was only my second time in this shop after it's renovation. The reason why me & my family does not really visit the shop when we are here is due to the hot weather & the busy streets. The lunch was awesome, with awesomely affordable price you can't find in KL.

After lunch, we strolled around Jonker Walk, another trademark of Malacca where you can get all your souvenirs and also taste the delicious traditional foods. Perhaps it was a weekday when we were there, some of the shops were closed but thankfully, the nice ones were opened :P

After Jonker Walk, we decided to visit the Famosa Fort. Another trademark of Malacca :) But honestly, I can't remember the road to the place. My last visit there was around 10 years before and I'm sure the roads in Malacca had changed a lot. In order to get there, we used GPS & we also asked around the place. Not long after, we found our way there. Malacca is small, seriously. A few turns and you will be able to find the place you want to visit.

The place is well-maintained and when we were there, we saw lots of tourists visiting the place as well. New experience for me after a revisit for almost 10 years :)

The weather was treating us pretty well when we were there :) Not much heat and we got wind. Next destination - Jonker Walk once again for some cooooooooooling desserts :D

It was quite costly eating at the place. Perhaps it's due to the frequent visit of celebrities and also of the name. 80 sens per stick and different prices for the different sizes of the plates. But it was worth the try :)

The Malacca trip was a spo0ntaneous and out-of-the-blue plan. It was fun because it was so spontaneous and it was so us in coming out with such a plan. But at least we did go somewhere during the holidays and it was awesome :) Hopefully we will have more trips like this in the future.

I will never look at Malacca the same anymore with this memory fresh in my mind :)