Saying Hi to the Persona.

2011/05/31, 6:40 PM

Gone

This is a post of thought.

You know the feeling you get when you realized that certain thing is not as good as how it was last time? I mean, in just a short period of 3 years, everything changed.

It's kinda sad, actually. When the memories flow in, you got the sudden urge of just go to whoever and whatever responsible and smack him/her. What did you do to whatever I've built up?

I got no words anymore.

Like seriously, why are things becoming worse now?

I still remember every single thing that had happened when I was there.

Yes, when I was at the spot where you are currently in. And to be honest, it was so much better. So much more genuine than it is now.

I'm just sad.

It used to cherish this so much, but look what you had did to it. I feel like it is no more meaningful. No more.

Labels: Ranting

2011/05/28, 11:42 PM

Scarlet

Scarlet

Can you still see your dream in the distant, starry sky?

Are they more vivid than they were when you were little?

When one forgets to put the emotions that are overflowed in their hearts to rest,

They burn the color of passion.

Even when they're alone, people want to share their feelings.

But it can be so hard.

Words are powerless to express one's feelings,

And sometimes they become a silver knife.

Labels: poem

2011/05/24, 8:46 PM

False Hopes

Sometimes I just hope that I can pour in more trust, but it seems that I was not supposed to do so, because it hurts. It still does.

All this while, endurance had taken up a lot of my rationality and I thought I would just lost myself.

All I want to do now is just to hide inside my blanket and.... no idea what I'm going to do. Maybe I should just weep myself to sleep, but that's too pathetic. But what else can I do to heal this broken heart?

False hopes. I hate you and I despise you.

You took away my rationality, leaving me behind without knowing what to do to cure the pain.

Sometimes I hope I can just be alone. Enough said.

Labels: Ranting

2011/05/16, 1:31 PM

Hello?

Sometimes you just get this odd feeling. Or perhaps, it's more towards a scary feeling, that makes you so scare that you just feel like ending everything. This feeling. Is happening now. At this exact moment.

Suddenly you feel that everything is going downhill. Suddenly. Everything just doesn't seem right anymore. Suddenly. You just want to be blinded out from the reality. You just want to be yourself but you are too afraid. You are just afraid to admit that you don't have the enough courage.

At this moment. I feel like everything will be changed. Everything will not be the same anymore. And. I will have no one to refer to anymore.

I feel like I just lost my support. I feel my whole soul being sucked out. Away from me. Because no matter how I screamed. How I plead for a pair of ears. There are none. At all.

Maybe not you, it's just me.

Can you. Listen to me?

Labels: Ranting

2011/05/14, 10:47 PM

Small Update on Internship

Finally have some time for myself! Awesome tired now but gonna update anyway for the ~~sake of updating~~ preserve of my blog's life.

One semester down. Another semester started..... two days after I finished my 6th semester.
Currently in my internship period.
Arcis Communications, PR/Branding/Adversing Company.
Awesome company. Awesome people. Awesome opportunity.
I know I will learn a lot from here :)

I barely have any time for myself.
Working has surprisingly absorbed all my energy and time away from me. It's far more tiring than college days and trust me, for the past few days, my sleeping time was never after 12.00 a.m. Day before yesterday was an exception. Was doing work, ended up no sleep at all.
Loving the office atmosphere. Although a bit too quiet, yes, (but not all the time) at lease I get the freedom I want.
I'm a typical Aquarian who constantly craves for freedom.
So yeah. Don't mind the working environment at all as well as all the tasks given.
A bit dry, yes. But things will surely get better when we are given more exposure.
For now. I just want my sleep. Badly.

Labels: Day

2011/05/09, 9:01 PM

I shall update once I'm done with my work. Awesome lot of work with awesome lots of things to say :D

2011/05/05, 3:24 PM

Ambiguity. Nah.

Aloha! I had been a long time, I know. My blogging mood kicked in so I really have to blog now before I decided not to :P

Finals week. So far, so good. I think.

Oh, by the way, in case you are not aware of it, being a true Aquarius, I despise guessing games. Straightforward. Done. That's how it should be, right? I mean, what's the point of hiding everything instead of making everything clear and (if needed) get a solution to solve whatever doubts in the current situation? I just can't get it. Or maybe it's just me, because I really, really don't like things being unsolved and of course, I really don't like it when there are too much ambiguity and guessing game buzzing around.

Okay. Enough ranting. One more paper to go and I am done with my diploma study life. Time really flies, don't you think? Tomorrow is the last day and after that, I can just hope for the best. Ambiguity, I dislike.

Good luck for the final paper! What done is done so let's not look back, shall we?

Adios! :D

Labels: Random, Ranting

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