Saying Hi to the Persona.

2011/09/30, 12:37 AM

Oh, really?

What I can't stand:

Wannabes - with no concrete arguments; just pure wannabes.
People stepping on others as if they are his/her slave.
People who purposely make others look bad - just to position themselves in a more superior position.
People who show off just because they want to show their "power" of being better - when they are not.

In short - insensitive people who acts superior and ruin everything.

And the list goes on. When you had seen everything, you will know. Who had been putting in the most effort and who deserve some recognition. And this really boils me up.

We are born the same. Even if you are a leader, please understand this very simple and basic statement. Seriously, when will this type of repetitive situation ever ends?

Labels: Ranting

2011/09/27, 11:06 PM

Urgh

It's seriously getting on my nerves. Would really appreciate it if it ends now. As in, NOW.

Pissed.

But seriously, what am I doing actually? This is complete nonsense.

2011/09/25, 9:57 PM

Just Be Happy

It had been a long time since I last participated in a walk/run/marathon. It was a great relieve. But I'm not going to talk about it in this post (yes, I realized I have a lot of posts pending aiks).

Layout changed. I was thinking of going back to the way I used to blog. Reading back old posts makes me realized that my writing style has changed. Even the mood of writing. I feel like I've lost my 'innocence' in blog-writing, which is kind of defeating the purpose.

What I need most is time I can spend in my room by myself. Too much to catch up and to much to be remembered. But hey, time is not stopping for anyone, and if you have a reason like I do, don't stop. But don't rush it as well, because we all know that resting is a preparation for a longer journey. And that's exactly what I need to do at times like this. Pressuring myself is definitely not going to work.

Just be happy :)

What I need now is time. Oh how I hope there's 48 hours per day, or that my stamina can help me to stay up longer :(

Random:

Won two movie premier tickets from lucky draw. Can't believe my luck.
Fed hamsters apples. They love it. I love it too! :)
I want to sleeeeeeep! *snores*

Labels: Day, Random

2011/09/24, 11:55 PM

With Those Eyes

And ever since they last met, nothing had changed.We were young and immature, but we had fun. We were happy.

And ever since the last time I spoke to you, nothing of you had changed.You had the same voice that makes my heart goes crazy.

We were happy. Both of us.

And when I saw you, you reminded me of everything about myself.About what I had lost in myself; and what I was supposed to be.

And when I saw you, I can't even look into your eyes.Because I had changed. You hadn't.

And this is tearing me apart.

But you - being you - are still compassionate; still strong; still filled with love.And you, are still the only one who can bring me this love, this crazy heart beat, and this warmth.

We were young. We were immature.But we were happy.

And seeing you today - the unchanged you - is bringing me back to reality.It's my reality now.

My reality with you.

Piece of thought. I miss you, dear friend :(

Labels: Random

2011/09/19, 10:20 PM

The One Who Had Taught Me About...

Guess who's birthday is it today? :P

It's daddy's birthday today! :) Couldn't be more excited. Especially when I feel the positive flow of atmosphere in the house telling me that everyone is soaked in happiness!

Will update more when I've compiled everything!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! :D

Labels: Day

2011/09/17, 12:02 AM

Down the Path

Insanely exhausted. I now have purple and burning red eyes looking down at me while I relax on my bed. The worst moment is not knowing what to do, is knowing something's wrong but have no idea at all on what had went wrong. Seriously.

But most importantly, I know I had done my best and if there are still faults marching towards me, I will move on. Just like what he said:

"As long as I'm breathing, I will continue to walk my path. I will continue walking."

It's good to have my own reality back instead of living in other's. That's just insanely wrong.

Now off to my bed - Reminiscing the wonderful dreams - my personal treasure.

2011/09/15, 9:11 PM

Once A Burning Flame

Been running to the lavatory like a mad cow, accompanied by non-stop sneezing, leading to dizziness. I'm suspecting the rain yesterday but who am I to blame the weather?

Went to MATIC ( Malaysia Tourism Center ) for a field trip yesterday. Culture dances are good! :)

I got my old fire back and I intend to keep it with me. Safely in my pockets this time.

Such a dummy I am to leave something important behind me. The whole reason I had been losing my inspiration - further losing myself in the process of trying to be better but forgetting who I am in the first place. If you feel like you are losing yourself, this is what I can recommend you to do -

Read your old diaries; watch movies you love in the past; read books that you will never get tired of reading it for the hundredth time; look at ancient pictures that you once cherished.

Look at these details, and discover how much you had missed out; how much you had left behind.

In the end of the day, I'm not afraid of telling the whole world who I am, because I've got nothing to hide. Always be true to myself; and remember why I am so passionate in the first place.

Perhaps one day, I will reach that unattainable goal and a totally new life - a life that I once desired so much.

Labels: Random, Realization

2011/09/12, 11:03 PM

Long Ride Dream

I had a great time reminiscing the past. It's fascinating how things can be so different today and yesterday.

5 years.

Is it a long time? Perhaps. But maybe not.

I can only be sure that I was a lot more contented 5 years ago.

No dramas, no pressure. And it seemed that "trust" can blend in more easily during those times.

And I still prefer the dream I used to have 5 years ago. Reality hits. I have to really bear in mind that it's still possible. But everything must be done one step at a time.

Sometimes I dislike making decisions. Especially the ones between you can, you need, or you want.

I want, but I can't. The feeling of 'so near yet so far' is really unpleasant.

Looking back - 5 years ago, precisely - everything was so straightforward, so easy, so contented. And there was a specific goal - one that I really, really wanted to achieve. It's not that I do not want it anymore now. I still do. But somehow - reason(s) unknown - it's becoming further and further away. I despise it. Despising the fact. I wonder why is everything becoming so complicated? Or mainly because I living in other's hope instead of my own? Fulfilling other's expectations of what I will become instead of pursuing what I really want to become.

That's why reality is challenging.

5 years ago, I still remember the best team I've ever worked with in my entire life.

No dramas. Everyone is committed. And we treat each other like we are brothers and sisters.

That was a real team, I call it. Never a team more perfect than the one I worked with 5 years ago.

From strangers to close friends - a team. A sudden leap. But somehow, the trust remains. Blossomed without the need to input extra effort.

Isn't that what a team should be?

I would really want to retrieve the dream I had 5 years ago. The far, unattainable, yet real & contented dream.

The long ride really made me wonder :)

Labels: Random, Realization

2011/09/07, 2:47 PM

Boo!

Blasting my ears with nostalgic soundtracks; working with two laptops in the same time - one for entertainment and one for work; having coffee beside me; and having my Wednesday afternoon all to myself.

Ever since the holiday ended, something is wrong with me. Perhaps it was because of an incident from Monday, which was supposed to be resolved by this week but I'm assuming that it will be dragged to the next. Emotional imbalance. Especially when I have my precious alone time with me. I despise myself for thinking too much, and for some reason, this often lead to unnecessary stress & pressure, which is definitely not the best resolve one could find. But sometimes you know, I can't help myself. I admit that I do not have the capability to control everything, sometimes even myself. It's hard to control how one feel, because no matter how much you want to avoid it, there will definitely be some part of the body that will stay honest.

Hard, isn't it?

Lecture today mentioned about the old-times. It reminded me so much on all the crazy things I did in the past 10 years. Even now, I still do collect things I adore in the tangible form. Even though I can get it without any cost, but it's still awesome to have the feeling of touching something realistic instead of looking at digital data. Personally, I feel very cheated and unreal. I still prefer the tangible feel :)

It's a hot day! Get yourself some ice beverage and enjoy your day doing everything you like :)

(I feel like I'm defeating my own purposes. That feeling sucks. )

Labels: Random

2011/09/01, 12:44 PM

September Swift

The leap from August to September had not been treating me good. Landed myself in dizziness and temperature rise, along with mental and emotional sickness. Honestly, the worst sickness is when you are both physically and mentally/emotionally tortured.

But am curing now. Just hope the flu, headache, and sore throat swiftly rush their way out. Is this something got to do with me being a couch potato for the past few days? Aiks this is definitely not good. (Or good?)

It's already Thursday! Look at how the time flies. I still remember Tuesday vividly, or it was because most of my Wednesday was spent on the bed? Pfft. But anyhow, I know September will treat me good, it better be.

Happy September, everyone! :)

Edit:

Am supposed to write about Snowdonia. No idea what's that. So I did a bit of research. Apparently, it is a region in north Wales and it was the National Park. Hmm hmmm.

Labels: Day, Random

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