I had a very contented & meaningful week. Am not going to bombard you with pictures (yet) but I really can't wait to share with you the satisfaction I feel. Being surrounded by people actually means a lot. It possesses the power to influence and even to change you into - either a better person, or a person who's totally not you. I'm really glad to admit to the fact that I'm a person extremely hard to be brainwashed. Perhaps it was due to my egoism; the unexplained high level of self-esteem within me ever since I was in kindergarten, beating out guys and protecting girls sulking behind my back. Memories oh memories. But honestly, the feeling of protecting someone is really - indescribably - great, at least for me. I had been growing up with people putting heavy loads of expectations on me. It's really hard to breath. But I've grown up with it and I've somehow, gotten use to it. Perhaps I'm not the best person out there, but, after numerous self-reminders, I realized that I do not need to change myself into someone I'm not to impress others. That's really unrealistic, and fake, which I hate the most. I have different attitudes when I'm facing different people. Like what they said, there's nothing wrong with my personality. It's always been the same. What's different is the attitude. Because most of the time, I'm just giving back the attitude one person shows me. Equivalent exchange. They told me: Just be you. I said I know.

This is a very wordy post. Didn't intend to break it into paragraphs *smirks*. It's just a spill of thought. I've been thinking a little too much. I've got a lot of dreams. I have to admit this - I'm a dreamer. I've got so many things I want to achieve; so many things I want to do. The far-fetched ones, and the realistic slash logical ones. But I'm gonna take things step-by-step. Rushing into things makes me feel incredibly insecure. And I truly believe that if you want something, you have to pour in the effort to grab it. Of course, how we define effort is totally different. It's all up to you. That's why, if something comes your way fast, it will get out of the way fast as well. The faster it comes, the faster it goes. I know when it comes to things we want to do, or our dreams, we have this urge to grab it as soon as possible; we become impatient, as if our dreams will no longer be attainable if we don't grab it now. I don't believe in sudden wealth ("durian runtuh") and even it happens, it must be due to something I've done in the past. Call me old-fashioned. But I rather believe in something more believable. I love taking things one step at a time. It makes me feel the ground, allowing me to grip control. And I'm making sure that every single to-dos in my list will be ticked off at the end of the day.

Am looking forward to everything. Bring it on ;)